damn glitches!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn damn DAMN!!!!
my stupid SE had a glitch. when i cleared my outbox, it deleted my inbox!!!
i had 600+ messages inside my inbox. i bought my phone roughly 2 years ago and i have always kept messages which meant alot to me. each sweet message would be kept and appreciated from time to time. and now they are all GONE!!!!

T_T

2years worth of memories.....T_T

every staged of my relationship had its perks....

my darling was so sweet when he tried to get me interested in him....

he was very infactuated when we first started.....

when he was apart from me, faraway in sabah, he would send me messages that would make a stone melt....

when he was working in singapore, he would make it up to me all day with loving words.... and funny stories....

when we fought, harsh words are exchanged but not as much as words which allows us both to realize what the other really means....i keep those to remind me that no 2 person are the same and that we all require a little understanding now and then.

now it is all gone......T_T

i mourn the loss of memories..... from my darling, from my father, my mother, my goodlooking brother, i mourn the messages where my bestfriend told me how she misses me sitting beside her in class, how we used to hangout all the time.... haha even the one where she would buy me a bell if i were a cute cow....dont ask me how that conversation started.....i dont know.

im not one of those who sit by the corner and read 2year old messages all day... but i am sentimental to the core....sigh

i know what people say.... sometimes you have got to throw the old memories away to make room for new ones.

a sense of relief did come after the grief left.
its like ive been given a new.... a second chance.....

i had bad and good memories in my handphone...memories that can still cause hurt when i read it.... but now i aspire to keep good memories and ncver to make another bad one.....
today happened to be 1 of our anniversaries, i hope it is a good omen =)