Relationships.....

im having a little..... friendship crisis here.... when people know each other for a long time, you know when someone has changed for good. it is not a phase. it is not a mood swing. its change. what we can do with the change, is entirely up to us.

So now my friend has changed. in a totally opposite way of who i am. yes, we have always been day and night but somehow, we clicked and we are best of friends. but lately she has been doing things that is opposite my principle and perception. call me close minded, call me old fashion, but when you start to practice what i percieve as bad judgement, that means you are bad influence. and i cant have that. i cant have someone who is so close to me to be doing things that i loath. thats right. loath. you cant ask an animal lover to be friends with a poacher. no way.
so you usually will grow apart and find new friends.

what happens when it is family? no matter how, you cant turn your back on family. you cant just ignore that you have a loony aunt. or a pig of an uncle. or a grabby grandpa. they are family. okay,maybe not grabby grandpa. but no matter what, you need to be there for them. its even worse when it is someone who used to be very close to you when you were young. someone who is..... important. you have a sense of duty towards them. what happens then?

what happens when it is down to duty and your life's happiness? everything you have worked for against the very reason you worked so hard?your dreams against duty?

life sucks when shit happens.

all you can do is hope that fate makes it the hard decisions for you. but they never do