NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn damn DAMN!!!!
my stupid SE had a glitch. when i cleared my outbox, it deleted my inbox!!!
i had 600+ messages inside my inbox. i bought my phone roughly 2 years ago and i have always kept messages which meant alot to me. each sweet message would be kept and appreciated from time to time. and now they are all GONE!!!!
T_T
2years worth of memories.....T_T
every staged of my relationship had its perks....
my darling was so sweet when he tried to get me interested in him....
he was very infactuated when we first started.....
when he was apart from me, faraway in sabah, he would send me messages that would make a stone melt....
when he was working in singapore, he would make it up to me all day with loving words.... and funny stories....
when we fought, harsh words are exchanged but not as much as words which allows us both to realize what the other really means....i keep those to remind me that no 2 person are the same and that we all require a little understanding now and then.
now it is all gone......T_T
i mourn the loss of memories..... from my darling, from my father, my mother, my goodlooking brother, i mourn the messages where my bestfriend told me how she misses me sitting beside her in class, how we used to hangout all the time.... haha even the one where she would buy me a bell if i were a cute cow....dont ask me how that conversation started.....i dont know.
im not one of those who sit by the corner and read 2year old messages all day... but i am sentimental to the core....sigh
i know what people say.... sometimes you have got to throw the old memories away to make room for new ones.
a sense of relief did come after the grief left.
its like ive been given a new.... a second chance.....
i had bad and good memories in my handphone...memories that can still cause hurt when i read it.... but now i aspire to keep good memories and ncver to make another bad one.....
today happened to be 1 of our anniversaries, i hope it is a good omen =)
Today I celebrate my 26th month anniversary!!! Whee~!!!!
Its been a long run….. never thought I would make it this far. We have had quite a number of obstacles and… we made it!
Hehe
My time in university is almost over. Life is getting harder and the things we learn are getting more and more complicated. My carefree life of a minimum responsibility person is coming to an end. Soon, I am an ADULT *gasp*
It is going to be the longest period of my life. 30 odd years before I can claim my retirement. People often refer to that stage in life as the golden years. Really? Being old and your body not being as reflexive as it used to be, having everything droop, all the abuses you inflicted onto your body is now coming back to haunt you…. Doesn’t seem like much of golden to me.
God forbid should any long term disease befall onto you. Or your partner. When I see an old lady or an old man who has lost their partner long time ago, I feel very sad. When you have worked hard all your life and saved up all that money so that you both can travel and do all the things you had to put on hold while raising your kids, suddenly being left all alone to do those things isn’t really quite the same….
It’s not often you find that one companion who gets along with you so well and care about you so much. The bed remains too empty for you alone. So get more pillows!!!! Hehe
Someday, not too far from now, I hope I don’t have to go to bed alone anymore. I think I can safely dream about those days now.
my crazy semester is almost done....
thanks to my teammates. to be honest this semester they helped me out alot.
i guess next semester i really need to buck up and get dirty with them.
im just so tired. my last holiday was.....december. perhaps the xoming 8weeks holiday will renew my will to complete this degree and chuck it to hell.
ive met amazing lecturers and ive met amazing lecturers. lecturers who i dont know how they even managed to become lecturers.
im too exhausted to be lecturer bashing lolz.
this post is dedicated to those who helped me thru the last 3weeks. man,it felt like 2months.
you guys are the greatest!!!!!
