Since life is pretty slowpace now before the madness begins, i found a new addiction.
Mahjong!!! Now i know how people can stay up all day and all night just playing them!
Gosh it's like, when you are playing mahjong, you have to be SO alert and SO sharp!
it really test your minds sharpness and intelligence. you could be the first to have a perfect set and you are just waiting for that one character while the others are still fumbling but you may just lose because you waited for something someone else was waiting. You also have to be SO careful of what you throw because each character that you throw that benefits others, you have to pay. haha
with limited chips, the game gets tough and fast paced. DAMN its a good game!
when i finally return home, i am going to teach and infect ALL of you back in Penang!!
keeps the mind sharp and the wits alert ^^
last night i played til 6am before howard called it quits. i felt so alive and awake i could've played all night!! hehe
shh...dun tell my mum
okay...since university started i havent had the time to blog.or even go online. so many things on my mind.
for one thing, just reading my subject planner already i feel dizzy.... sigh. so damn tough. another is PPSMI. that sucks. i knew they were going to reverse the thing. abolish it. stupid government. fools. the country will pay.aih my poor...beloved country.....
Infosys is over. damn i miss the life. i really do. i miss all the people in it too.... i was so excited to start learning and start my semester already. but all my lecturers are not. so now i have.... nothing to do.... aih.... my entire house went home this weekend....i wish i could too..... oh well....
I MISS YOU ALL!!! ALL OF YOU!!!!!!
That's it. Here it is. People, i am done! Infosys, over. i want to be able to say that i am glad, that i am happy, that i am relieved. Actually, im.....
Last night all of us stayed up way past our bedtime because we didn't really wanted the night to end. We played mahjong from morning until night hehe. took my friends from Sarawak to go see UTeM main campus. Sigh. i am going to miss them all. Really. Given a chance to do over,i would not do it again. Neither would Perly haha but we made a few friends i would not forget.
at infosys i had a Mummy hehe. we all did.
*Mummy and I*
Mummy's real name is Ping Ping but she is known to us all as Mummy!!!!!! simply because she is the oldest among all the trainees and she calls us her children. she self proclaim as the mummy of the infosys herd (hehe) so we all eventually took her as our big sister.sort of. im already missing her. she had to leave early so she missed out on the photo sessions but i managed to steal a picture with her before she left.
right now i feel so weird because i am not heading back to King's Hotel to stay tonight. I feel weird not having a deadline to meet. the closing ceremony was grand.
it was held at Equitorial Hotel Malacca. We had Chinese food. 7 course meal! it wasnt... really Chinese food.it was a Malay equivalence of Chinese food. the Seafood soup tasted like sharkfin soup with prawn instead of shark fin, the roasted chicken tasted like roasted pork but with chicken instead of pork and etc. you get the idea haha. after the eating we had photo sessions. we all plan to pass them along via Facebook so theres no need for me to re-post them
after long winded goodbyes and promises of Simpan Dalam Sentuh, we parted.
i cameback and started to move into my new home. Starting my 3rd and final year on Monday and i have officially moved out!!
so tired......really tired.
the only consolation i have is that i get to have 2 FULL days with my beloved darling before madness starts ALL over again! gonna appreciate it ^^
my darling helped me move things in and out of the car, moped and fixed up my bed, mattress, cupboard, helped me do 80% of the work!~ gonna reward him later ^^
thats all guys! for now.tired
Infosys was a great experience. all those that i have met there are truly the top 100 computer science undergrads in the country. it was an honour to have met you all and have had the opportunity to work with you all before you guys become hotshots haha
adios amigos!!
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I keep saying that I miss home. People always ask me “What do I miss about home?”
That got me thinking. What is it really that I miss?
I’m going to make a list now. As you can see, I am too free lol
I miss my mummy. She used to fuss over me whenever I go home after being away for a long while. Me and tricia wouldn’t protest because secretly we like to be pampered and hugged by our mummies ^^
I miss my daddy. Not his temper but that seems that the infamous temper has left the Kam household, leaving a very pleasant oldman behind. Why does it always take age to soften something hard and stubborn eh? XD
I miss my brother. I cant say little brother because he is 1.5 times my height now. He is taller and he is bigger. Very much mature for his age but will revert back to the 12 year old that he was whenever he and I wish to take a trip down memory lane…. Except that now I no longer hug him into my arms. He hugs me into his. I feel so protected
I miss my lovely one-of-a-kind TRICIA!!! My gym buddy! My shopping and hangout kaki. My American Idol buddy. My gossip source. My movie kaki. My music updater (she discovers new songs and I download them for both of us). My er fashion sense (I have none so she will update me on the latest trends and explain what they are). My crazy quirky funny loveable Tricia! There’s no one like her. Gosh I miss her sooo much! Cos shes my only best friend I haven’t seen for the longest time. Even though both our lives are so crazy and I miss her so much, she is also the best friend I keep in touch with the most. I message her the most (after howard). When I see you tri, you better stand still so I can have my fill of hug of you!
I miss Wee Nee. Currently doing her internship. She should have come for Infosys. I didn’t know that it could be counted as an internship too. Wasted opportunity. Shes the toughest girl I know. So determined. So resilient. She never gives up. Soldiers on no matter what. Against all odds. I miss her. Roti canai is not the same without her
Mei lin keeps creeping up my mind too haha. The only other super tall person in my life besides my brother. But I don’t feel that you are towering over me. I feel that we are on equal grounds (my ego made up for the loss of height I suppose haha) we can go on and on and on for hours, can’t we? I saw her most the last few times I went back so I don’t miss her as much but quite often she will creep into my mind and pounce on me! Haha. WHEN YOU COMING OVER?????
Ahh…. Jing Zi. Havent kept in touch with her since august last year. Gosh has it really been a year?? Geez. Everytime when July semester is about to start, I will start to think of her already because that is when she is coming back. 2 (or was it 3?more?) years already at Newcastle and she still has not adopted any western culture. Good for you! Haha. Love people who has a firm ground on who they are (you too mei lin)
Mich…mich…. Always wanting to steal my brother for her ownself haha. Currently back in KL already. I miss the good old days where I would go to work then after work I would go wake miss princess and we would go for lunch then just hangout. Life was simple back then. In many ways she was my substitute for a boyfriend, company-wise la. She was there for me, had fun with me, talked about anything from the sun to the stars to the moon. Haha I even gave her my first diary. That was how close we were
Gosh I think this list is getting too long yet I haven’t even scratched the surface of what I miss! Haha no wonder I’m so homesick! I miss the food, I miss the sea, I miss DURIAN!!!! I miss the hectic Penangite life. I even miss the GSC we have there! I miss my bed and the 32 inch Television! I miss…I miss…..i…i…. *explodes with miss*
My dad always tell me that there are 3 types of people. Those who sit and complain that great things don’t happen to them. Those who watch great things happen to others. Those who make great things happen. It’s not hard to sort people out into these categories.
I hate chronic complainers. Hate them. Annoying little brats is what they are. Stubborn, spoiled, annoying and thick-skinned. Seems to be I always meet these sorry losers. No no, I won’t name any of them. The strangest thing about these people is that they don’t realize it. All the unpleasant people don’t realize how unpleasant they are. The funniest thing is instead of knowing that they are unpleasant and that they should change their ways if want to have friends, they think that they are the world’s most popular people and that they have no flaws. Maybe that’s why I find them so annoying.
People are strange creatures, don’t you think so? We are the only creatures who after getting injured, comeback for more. Time and time again after crashing from a heartbreak, we are back for more. After falling off a horse, we climb back up it again. After totaling a car, we buy a new one and drive again. As if we are asking for more pain in our life. Strange isn’t it?
I always had this theory hehe. Christians and Muslims are not going to be happy reading this. I always wondered to myself why we have so many idiots running around. Its like, for every intelligent mortal (as nature intended) there are 10 morons running around. Yup, that ratio is about right. Then one day I came to my own conclusion to my question. The reason incest is taboo/forbidden is because when 2 DNA that is that similar mixed together, they will cause genetic mutation. Why I don’t know. In my head logically I think if u take a pair of identical twins and mate their DNA, you would be cloning them. Anyway, for some reason, close DNA will give you retarded kids. Dating back to Adam and Eve, Eve was supposedly made from Adam’s ribs. Means she is part of him. They share the same DNA. Then they mated. Based on probabilities, their offspring is like a cross between cloning and incest. If incestual babies are retards, then the human race after Adam and Eve are therefore, retards. Then I don’t know how (because I am neither Christian or Muslim) the human population grew with Adam and Eve’s family as the first human family. How? They needed to breed among each other. Means…. Having sex within the family. More retards. So….. are we a product of retards? The probability of having a retard or mentally disable child nowadays with 2 similar DNAs is high but not 100%. Maybe that’s why we have geniuses, the commoners and the dimwits. Perhaps when the human race was born, we were meant to be geniuses. Our brains are made that way. Look at the human body defense system! We were tasked to care after mothernature and all her offsprings. Look at what we have done. Look at the state of Earth. If mothernature truly exist, she is going to be one hell of a bitch when she discovers the condition of Earth. I have this feeling that I will live to see Earth get destroyed. Not by aliens. Not by some end of the world notion. I believe Earth will perish on the hands of humans. Some idiot will accidently set off a nuclear bomb, which will prompt all the big guns to show whose nuclear bomb can create the biggest crater in the world. We will eat all the fishes in the sea til they are all extinct. Those which survived will be poisoned by our human waste and stupidity and our lazy garbage disposal methods. Our ”advance” technology to manipulate the poultry to make them grow fat and large and fast will create billions of new deadly virus and super bacteria that will in turn, kill humans (H1N1). AIDS is doing a fine job, killing people left and right slowly and painfully because of a man who couldn’t keep his dick in his pants, away from monkey and his human wife. I can go on and on and on but even I am losing my appetite for this entry.
Growing up makes you aware. Growing up makes you mature. I just finished reading The Golden Compass. It is a good read. Talks about original sin and growing up. About being naïve and innocent. Original sin is when Adam and Eve first defied God and bit the apple. Up until 5 minutes ago I didn’t understand what original sin was. Now I know. God intended us to be innocent and happy as children are happy. Did anyone watch Dollhouse? It’s a series on TV about how there is an organization who has a bunch of hot looking guys and girls that had their memory wiped out and now has a mentality of a child until someone hires them. Then they will be programmed to be the best in whatever the client needs them to be. Hunter, date, negotiator, you name it, you got it. I look at them and I don’t call that happiness. To be innocent and ignorance of the worlds evil. To be denied the mistakes I made which I learn valuable lessons from. To be… emotionless. Unable to think for myself. I don’t call that life. I don’t call that happiness. I’m happy that Adam and Eve made that mistake. They were curious and rebellious. That is human nature. You can’t get any more human than that. It was a lost cause from the beginning. If God wanted Adam and Eve as pets who lived happily at the Garden with the mentality of children, he should not have given them a brain, curiosity and rebellion instinct. Oh well. Guess even God can’t always get what he wants.
People always want what they can’t have. We are constantly working for something. We just can’t sit still as a race, can we? Haha. The man who has everything, will always say he is looking for something because he is bored thus he is looking for entertainment. If I were king and I had everything I needed, I wonder if I would be bored. Probably. Maybe that’s why rulers are usually so mean and cruel. They always have this dark side to them. It is because they are so bored they are willing to try anything that gives them some distraction and pleasure, even if it is for awhile. Since they have money and influence, what is stopping them?
We are deplorable as a race, aren’t we?
Yesterday was day 1 of the new intake. My gawd there were SO many!!! Mostly Malays which means the number of Chinese intake in local universities have dropped. I wonder why. Is it because the government did not give or are we turning them down?
This year the newbies are registering at the main campus. We are finally moving in!!! im kind of proud of my main campus. Its HUGE! Hehe. Land in Malacca is cheap.
Sigh. Today is Monday already. In 6 days I will be going to university as a 3rd year now. Sigh. I feel so old. The newbies look so young! I miss home a lot. Been thinking of skipping the first few days so that I can perhaps nick a short 3 days at Penang. But I need to clean out my new room out. I HAVE MY OWN ROOM!!! FINALLY!!!
Hehe those who want to come visit me now have a place to stay already hehe!!!
I bought a bed that is foldable. Very cool. Found 2 mattress for rm30. Its now on howards bed. So for the time being his bed is made up of THREE mattress!!! Ahahahahahaha damn comfy la. When I lie down on it, it feels like…like….nothing. im sleeping on air. Such comforts.
My time at King’s Hotel is now coming to an end. Honestly, I have never regretted anything in my life. Until now. I regret joining this course. Somehow I feel that the end does not justify the means. There are so many things I wanted to do. So much more that I wanted to experience. All I got to show for it is a fat belly from 8weeks of eating greasy malay food 3 times a day and 2 fails to show for it. Sigh. My major is so obscure that nothing I learn here, I think, can be applied on my major. I think I will have a hard time fitting into the real world.
Speaking of the real world, I now remember what was the purpose of this blog already. I think all of us were very happy when we heard that English was to be the medium for Science and Maths. In fact, I was envious. Now there is talk of changing it back to Malay. =.=
Not only the government is backing this idea but also the opposition. Wth. We are suppose to be moving FORWARD, not backward! Everyday I read about various politicians who would give their views about how Bahasa Malaysia is being threatened by the usage of English in this two subjects. Hello… we are taking 10 subjects for SPM. 3 out of 10 subjects are hardly threatening. If the Malaysian will to keep their heritage and culture is so weak, then which language we use to learn is hardly the main issue. The problem with these politicians is that they are not the students. They don’t know how it is like to learn everything in Malay only to have to relearn everything again in English. It didn’t matter how much knowledge we acquire in Science and Maths because at an international level, we know nothing. Because it is ALL in English! How do you expect us to compete in an international level?? Or hold discussions with international scholars when we are not even using the same terms and language? This is a step backwards. The government is going about this the wrong way. Why bother to ask the politicians when it does not concern them? Its like asking a trishaw peddler what is the best way to treat cancer. Sure, he can give you his views but he has to credentials to give them. Why would he? It has nothing to do with him! If the government truly wants what is best for the country’s future, they should be conducting a nationwide survey comprising ONLY the students! If at university level is conducted fully in English, what logic does it make to start the student’s foundation in Bahasa Melayu?
The government policy changes based on politician’s whim and fancy. The nation’s future leaders are paying the heavy price. How is the country suppose to grow? We as students have been very patient with the government. We are forced to carry heavy books to school, made to endure a full day school, study subjects which is not of our interest but are forced to score nevertheless. Let me ask these bright politicians, how many times in your life have you applied everything you learned in school? Look at the Americans. They are able to choose their subjects much earlier and more freedom than we do. It enables them to pursue their interest at an earlier age, giving them a headstart. They need not waste their time with subjects such as Moral. Moral values such as integrity and respect cannot be learned in a classroom from a thick, boring textbook by memorizing definitions. Singapore adopts a much longer school hours per day than Malaysians. I don’t know what they teach in class but when I talk to my cousin, he is far more knowledgeable than the Malaysian’s his age. He knows about world history. He knows about world geography. He knows more general knowledge than I do and I am 7 years older than he is. So did Singapore got it right? While our leaders are using us all as guinea pigs to justify their political agendas, the world is passing Malaysians by. My batch was the guinea pig batch. We were the first to take EST(which was compulsory for my school and is now abolished =.=) we were the first to take Science and Maths in English at Form4 and Form 5. I can tell you we were not happy about the switch. It was for the better because English is the language of Science but the transition period was hard. Science has many many scientific terms and while we studied it in Malay, it was another term. Giving that same fate to future students is not a bright idea.
When all is said and done, most of the time I can see that the Malaysian politicians can’t see or think further than 3 feet in front of them. Maybe they should play more chess and less politicking. The future of our country is getting bleaker and bleaker by the minute. Elections are determined by the young voters. I myself am a young voter and we want change. We don’t want has-beens ruling this country. We don’t want dramas and fake promises. We want brilliance. We want foresight. We want someone worthy of being a leader. We are in fact, losing out to our fellow neighbours like Philippines. Soon oil will run out. Soon we will be just like any other countries who don’t have any advantages. Soon we will all become a third world country like Africa. At least they are not delusional
Darling, i am fickle minded. i talk of leaving. i talk of independence. i talk of separation. i crap at length about how i demand more and you can never fulfill them.
when you hold me in a full embrace and my head is at that special crook of your arm that seems somehow designed for my head size, i forget everything. my place is there.
forget whatever i have ever said. it all boils down to nothing the minute you hold me in your arms the way you do and tell me with those sincere eyes how much you miss me. nothing you can say that will speak more of how much you love me than those brown (or isit black?) eyes. guess your are stuck with me. cos im never leaving
NEVER
