maturity and foolishness

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Racism. so much for boasting that we are one big family regardless of race and background. aihh...

these UMNO thugs dont get it. we dont care. it doesnt affect us. day in day out we read and hear about chinese being insulted. about indians being denied their rights. all provoked by malays. GOD fearing malays. championing the rights of malays apparently. which malays? the common malays? i dont see them joining the fight. if someone was championing my rights, i would cheer them on. i would join them in rallys and demostrations.

but..wait a minute.....
Permatang Pauh was lost because the common malays ditched the malay champions.
BN faces the worst lost since independence because the malays they are sposedly protecting said no thanks, we can handle ourselves. instead, we wanna support the team that fights for all equal rights among malaysians. not malays, but malaysians. hmm.....dont u find that odd?i find it amusing. how certain ppl can be slapped over and over again and still dont realize it haha.

up til now i thought that if UMNO keep pushing the nation to the brink of racial riots, then perhaps xmas comes early for them. then all would be lost. i was thinking exactly like them although im not at the same side as them. until this very moment.

i just visited malaysiakini.com.my, my fave source of unbiased political news. one of the main titles was Utusan calling teresa kok the queen of bitches. haha. as a chinese im spose to feel defensive. anger. normally i would. if this was the first of the many idiotic things these ppl have said, i probly wud be shouting and fuming a volcano out of my tiny head. i was when that idiot ismail called me a pendatang. i think even if i haf to push my car 10 miles, i would happily do it rather than to risk mistakenly pumping petrol at HIS station at greenlane. i would also never eat at a mamak stall ady. if i ever meet that idiot who tore Mr Koh's pic..... and i dont even know Mr Koh! but tonight i have a diff reaction.instead im smiling and shaking my head. no, its not because i think its funny.

its because i think the UMNO are frustrated. after all their best efforts, they still cant get the racial riots they wanted. they are probly are at the best of their game ady. they cant think of anymore insults to hurl at us(nonmalays), no more offends higher than this they had to resort to calling her a bitch on a malay mainstream newspaper.

they called an MP, a highly respected MP who got thrown into ISA, who have been through more than any girl MP has ever gone through, who didnt retailiate, who did NO wrong in the first place, who behaved like a civilised person n merely sued Utusan, who has gained the respect of everyone, gained even more sympathy if nothing else the queen bitch. hahahaha. i feel pity for them. because not only theyve successfully turned all those who were choosing no sides against them, they have in fact, make themselves the common enemy for all common sense malaysians. nothing unites everyone like a common enemy haha.

they have also misjudged the common malays.... i dont think they will agree that Teresa is a bitch. even the imam backed her up! haha. so instead of gaining their support... theyre aliening themselves away....
sigh.....

so u c, thats y im not mad when i hear them calling her names. cos i know, its not working. we have thwarted their pathetic attempts and now theyre are just....syok sendiri haha. whee!!!
POWER TO THE PEOPLE!!

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400!!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

WOW. really? has it been that long? somebody pinch me. OUCH! that hurts!

haha. my...my..... 400!. i expected the day to be close but i didnt expect it to be SO fast! time sure flies..... well what can i say? i love you darling! you are my heart and soul. my morning coffee that gets me thru the day. like a refreshing shower that washes off the day's grime off me. my entertainer when there's no tv to watch,partly because we don't own one. my downloader. my uploader. the one who unzips my inner passion and inner thoughts. the one who zips me up with a mouthful of his delicious cooking. your body temperature is always warmer than i am whenever i am around. thats how you keep my heart warm i guess. without you......

my life would be bleak. because without all the things above, life is just a continuous motion. it is not living. sure i can replace all that you are to me with something else. with time anything can be replaced. replacing a piece of diamond with chipped glass is still replacing.

but i foresee great future of us together. no matter where we are. no matter what shit we are in. as long as i have you, and you have your computer, we will both be happy and we will always end the day in a happy note.


relationships are hard. mine isn't all clouds in the sky either. but with patience and a little restraint, it can be a cloud. a tiny one. just the right size.

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finally, comprehension dawns on me

Saturday, September 20, 2008

During my free time, one of my fave pastimes are to just sit back with my current no 1 artist blaring from my stereo while i let my mind wonder freely without constraints. its a form of relaxation.

Without inhibitions of course, I would ponder about things that my limited knowledge based brain would find curious about. lately ive acquired this little taste for liquor. not alcohol, liquor. what is the difference, you ask? well, alcohol means you like anything that has alcohol in it. liquor means only the good stuff. ive developed a strong attraction to all the lords of hard liquor. JIm Bean.... Jhonny Walker..... Jack Daniels.... ESPECIALLY Jack Daniels! or whom i fondly call JD =D.

my sweet darling managed to get his hands on a Black Label Jhonny Walker (thank you!) at a tax free price beginning of this semester. suffice to say when i took my first sip it was overwhelming. no, i didn't get drunk( that's all you people can think of eh?) but i that was when i realized the difference between the locally brewed brandy and a famed brewed liquor. WOW.

so now one of my fave pastime has been altered a bit. i now enjoy sitting back in a comfortable position on the bed/couch and watch a good movie be it old or new WITH a glass of Jhonny Walker in my hand =D

trust me when i say that my new interest got my daddy a little worried hehe. if you are reading this daddy-o, let me RE-assure you again that i know what i am doing and i know my limit. oh and FYI: i have your genes. it takes quite a lot to knock me out lol.

anyway, the reason im writing this entry is because one of the things which i always ponder but never quite got it. i feel very relaxed and at home with a glass of heaven in my hand. why would i want to venture out in this tropical heat that we live in and make myself sit in a pub to drink with my friends where the price of 2 glasses can be used to buy a litre of whatever that i was drinking? after that, i get to stumble out of the pub, all blurry eyed and chemically induced happiness, i have to drive home. ... errr..... nah.
however, unexpectedly i got my answer.

you see, i believe i am not the only one who thinks that way. i think most girls think that way too. that is why i think girls who goes clubbing are there to dance and socialize, not to drink. guys however, are more to picking up girls( socialize la) and to prove that their manhood is er... bigger(?) than their buddies. it is like, if no one gets drunk then it is not a good night. =/

so for someone like me who doesnt like to dance( i have 2 left feet) and prefers to sit back n enjoy good entertainment and the drink, the pub isnt a place for me. until last night.

i was home doing my system, at the verge of suicidal mainly because my LOST season 3 just ended and i dont have season 4. like an addict whose last fix just ended, i was ready to kill whoever it takes to get my hands on season 4 =D

my darling came to my rescue. he wanted to go to his frens house to get movies or whatever that they have downloaded using my external. turns out that his frens are having a drinking party at their porch. knowing that i could use some de-stressing, he invited me to go along. after 3months my Jhonny Walker is still above half bottle. since im going to crash someone's drinking party i thought it is only polite to bring something.

we arrived to find 7 guys halfway through a litre of Rum( locally brewed) and 3 bottles of beer. next to their stash, my black label stood out lol. so we began drinking. its funny to sit back and watch the guys try to get their housemates drunk. hehe. there was this guy who cant hold his liquor at all. after a few glasses, he happily sits at the corner smiling to himself. no longer able to talk but if u put a cup in his hand, he will happily down it in one go. lol. eventually they carried him to his room. i knew went to stop so i was okay. the thing about happy guys is that their tongue gets loose. many things come out. we began catching up. up til now ive heard of these guys and snipets of their stories but last night i think i made 7 new friends. hehe.

so now i know. why people pay many more times than they have to to drink in a place like a pub with friends. drinking in a group is so much more fun. esp when someone has a little too much to drink =D


i still dont like pubs and would never dare to drink as much as i want to if i was drinking in one, but i think i would keep a bottle of hard liquor or two with me so that i can invite my friends over for a drinking/sleepover party. for fun's sake.


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Being in Love is a Temp State of Euphoria

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Heaven is a place here on Earth.

What if, heaven was given to you here on Earth? only to be taken away from you. it was just a teaser. good things never last. all good things must come to an end. you know what i think? i think these proverbs are invented to just placate those who have loss what they had. to keep them from doing something stupid. i think these people are morons. if what they lost are SO important to them, so dear to their hearts, you think these people will just roll over and let you have your way? you think some century old sayings are going to satisfy their frustrations and they would just let it rest? HA!


Life is strange. just when you think that you have it all figured out, circumstances comes back and bites you in the ass and gives you a whole set of hands to play. ugh. no matter what you do, no matter how much you mull over things, you can never pin it down to the last T. that was why i never bothered to plan too ahead. because i know somehow what i planned will have to be altered and screwed in so many ways a pornstar would be impressed. why do i even bother to anticipate? why bother at all?


i only bother when it comes to something important. like i said, if something really means that much to you, you wouldnt just roll over and let fate stamp its ugly feet all over your body. let it take what it wants from you and serve it coffee and biscuit while it trashes your life. you beat it with a stick. you poison the coffee you serve. you serve it mold biscuits. you make it so unpleasant fate will think thrice before messing with your life again. THATs what i call fighting back!

but when the price in hand co operates and plays right into the hands of fate, wanting the exact same thing fate wants, you can help but feel defeated. if you really love something, let it go. if its yours, itll comeback, right? i dare you to let all your pets go into the street. see if all comes back to you anot.

im a risk taker. i love playing with the odds. i love the risk. the challenge. the rebel in me. but somethings are just to precious to leave it to chance. oh well. i always said, the best way to learn n judge ones character is when that person faces a challenge, a fork in the road. and then we sit back and watch which road he/she takes. sometimes the end result doesnt matter. its more of the process. the way that individual makes that decision. what we learn may hurt us more than ever before. or makes us happy beyond imagination.

at the end of the day, it doesnt really matter. its all relevant.


live together, die alone.

as sad as that may sound, its about the most truthful thing ive ever heard from a TV series.

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when facing a rock......

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Life as it is....

im the type of person who when i hit a wall, i pause for awhile. only awhile tho. then i start hitting it. i keep hitting it till i bulldoze my way through. dat is if i really want to get through. eventually the wall crumbles and i get my way! ehehe...... stubborn eh?

but what happens when i come across a wall that is enforced with steels and ingrown roots that are as old as they come? sigh..... eventually my head hurts from all that butting and i stop. i give it one last kick and take another pause. i then either take a shortcut that leads to route 2 or i bomb the wall and head back the way i came.

what i am saying is that when things dont go my way, im forced to adjust to the situation. im forced to accomodate what will now be a thorn in my side. i wont give in wo a fight! but when things are set in stones, we eventually have to accept that not all stones will corrode.

oh btw a shout out to my uncle who turns 47 today! happy bday!! he is also one boulder of cement that never bulks. never!

my kind of peeps lol

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ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!

Thursday, August 28, 2008

WOW

ive been so busy i hadnt had time to write any new entries. im a little late but its better to be late than never right? haha

well...... we have reached ONE YEAR!!!!!

honestly i wasnt confident that we could achieve this milestone. not to say that we arent doing well, we are at the top! well, i am on the top of my world.
its just that to make a relationship work, a lot of factors play a part. big or small, they eventually amount to ALOT. ive seen many relationships fall apart not because of incompatibility, but because of life. oh well. glad im not one of those couples!!


anyway, just wanted to tell the world( virtual at least) that i LOVE MY DARLING AND THERE IS NO OTHER FOR ME EXCEPT HIM!!!

-eternity may come and go. and even after her cold traces have faded, i will still be here-
that's one of the sweetest things he has ever said to me. it has been engraved in my heart for life.

the sweetest thing he has said to me though, is for my ears only heehee!!


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HOT in herre!!!!

Saturday, August 2, 2008

HOT!!!!! HOT!!!! HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its sooo hot i could die. its like hell here. gosh now i noe y demons are always sooo ill tempered. damn its hot!!

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Google Alerts

Friday, July 11, 2008


Something that not everybody might know. Google Alerts is a very handy tool created by Google that allows you to experience the world of push information at a pace set by you.

What is push information? It's a form of information enrichment that happens passively without your active participation. Instead of going out there to find and learn more about a field, you set the system in such a way that the information is sent to you in digests for your consumption.

Many of us have experienced push information before, although these experiences are mostly in the form of annoying spam such as emails and promotional marketing. The whole field of marketing is probably epitomized by push information. But now, using Google Alerts, you can do the same thing for yourself, except you can choose what information to be pushed, and how often.

The beauty of the system lies in its simplicity. To get it to work, simply go to the Google Alerts page and enter in a topic you want to be kept up-to-date on, such as your favourite stock, company, singer, or what have you. Then enter in the frequency that you would like to be notified and GA will get to work immediately, emailing you the results when its done.

So far, I have set mine up to send me weekly updates on a few of my all-time favourite artists, and the benefit is some of the information sent to me is pretty interesting and outside the scope of information that I would normally seek, and I go through them when I need.

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does it matter?

Wednesday, June 18, 2008



what do you do when something.....inevitable is going to happen if you continue down the same road and its gonna be a disaster? do you...switch course? look for an alternative? what do you do when none of the alternatives can compare to the current joy you enjoy?

fail to plan is equivalent to planning to fail

when i first heard it, i thought it was very true.... i was so surprised that something that simple needed to be told and that....most people dont even realise it. ever. thru out their entire lives. im glad i found that out early. even if i had to be told

some mistakes in life are the best thing that has eve happened to me

when i heard that i thought it was the craziest bullshit ive ever heard haha. wat do u mean mistakes are good things in your life? what kind of shitty life you lead? haha. then i met my mistake. and ive got to admit. yeah, some things are the greatest thing to have ever happened to me. even if its jz a mistake. at least ive lived the dream. if i had to pay the price for the rest of my life, i will gladly do it. guess thats why people fall off the wagon, get bitten by sharks, break every bone in their body in a car racing crash, recouperate, and get right back on the horse, car, boat, wagon and whateva it is that theyve fallen off

dats wat makes life special i guess

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Silent Killer...

Sunday, June 15, 2008



as you walk away, i feel a familiar tug at my heart. does this have to be the way?must you walk away from me? i thought we were one. i thought we were inseparable. you once said that you had nothing to hide from me. i am free to roam among your thoughts. and yet you are walking away from me towards your most private place, leaving me behind. don't say you want to let me in to your secret hideaway only to tease me with the notion. i have never been in there and i probably never will. don't take out the treat, say that you will share only to take it away. THAT is what tears me apart. THAT is what that kills me late at night when no one is watching. when all is asleep. when nothing but my thoughts are keeping me company.

let's be honest. who doesn't have skeletons in the closet? who doesn't have a past or a present that they prefer never sees daylight? the only difference is that everyone belongs in either one of the two categories. you either am capable of sharing or you are not capable of sharing. pretending to be one of the category you are not is just... pointless. eventually the cat will be out of the bag.

you say i have free access to every part of you anytime. how can i when i only have level one clearance? level 2 and above is off limits. i cant be at an exclusive party without an invitation.

sigh. this is all pointless. how long do you hang on knowing that someone is going to get hurt? how long do you hang on despite you are the one hurting now?

you cant choose your family. but you can make new family members. through friendship.

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Things on my mind.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

I'm tired.

There's always new shit waiting for me everyday from the moment my eyes open until when I finally collapse on the bed from exhaustion.

It's been raining heavily the past few days and every time it does, it's cold, but I sweat like a pig because it's so humid my body can't evaporate sweat to cool me off. How's that for contradictory.

I want to hide inside a hole, but at the same time I want you to be in the hole with me...and I get torn apart.

The Giant in Kolombong has my broken fan for half a year and they still haven't returned it to me yet. The guy said he'll call but he never did. Tip for you guys....don't buy electrical items or stuff with warranty with a hypermarket. They are lazy assholes.

The hardware repair shop has my rice cooker and water heater, for a few weeks now and yes they never called me back. It's like all my electronic items are disappearing into a hole from which I would never see them again.

Everything that I see is black nowadays.

Except this page, which is white.

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Guess what people, Firefox 3 is now available for download on June 17th! The third version of the popular web browser, which has demolished Internet Explorer's dominance has been under development for more than 34 months. Has it been that long? I still remember getting Firefox 2 only just a year or two ago.

Anyway, here are some new stuff in FF3.

  • Improved interaction with Add-ons: clearer, more coherent language; less steps to install; more visible way to configure add-ons, probably to be moved back to the general Options window, which I hope deeply; more noticeable alerts when updates are available; a permanent restart Firefox button.
  • Support for remote bookmarks, bookmarks and history annotation.
  • Files could be handled by web services. If I am reading this correctly, this could mean you would be able to click on an attached document and open it with something like Writely or Google Documents. And perhaps, as I asked Santa, the ability to redirect mailto: links to web email services.
  • A much needed print support to prevent cut paragraphs and true WYSIWYG.
  • The much requested MSI installer which will be a much welcomed improvement for IT administrators as it will ease deployment and updating of Firefox across a company.
  • In the security front: support for Microsoft CardSpace and OpenID (check tomorrow’s article for more coverage on this). Smarter credentials handling.
  • Airbag, the Google backed open source crash reporting tool will replace currently licensed TalkBack.

Among the highly desirable requirements:

  • A private web browsing mode. I guess this would mean no cache, history, password or entered form information storage.
  • Save web pages as PDF files, integrated with history. That would be just awesome.
  • Support pause/resume downloads across sessions.
  • Make Firefox help accessible only while online. Not sure how good and idea this is.
  • Microformats support.

Nice to have:

  • Unified bookmarks/history. Does this mean no Places?
  • Support for Windows Vista parental controls. I really hope this one goes up in the priority list. This would be the first concrete downer for Firefox when confronted with Internet Explorer 7.
  • Tab grouping and expose. This sounds like Internet Explorer 7 Quick Tabs or the foxPose extension.
  • Windows Group Policy. Another blessing for IT administrators.
  • Allow add-ons to be installed without rebooting Firefox.
  • Simplified interface to manage downloads. Can it be simpler? Maybe exposing commands currently placed in the context menu.
You can get Firefox 3 when it launches at www.getfirefox.com

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abandonship!

Thursday, May 29, 2008

ever get tired of doing the exact same thing over and over and over again?
i do

ever just think that no matter how you try, some things never change and then u wonder if its,sigh, even worth the bother?
i do

ever just give up and leave it to fate?
i have but more often than not i will try my best to fix things

here's the interesting thing:
circumstances, events,decisions can all be changed if you put in enough effort into things. that's what i believe anyway. BUT when it concerns other people, now that's when it becomes tricky. Oh you may try as much as you want, as hard as you want and as long as you can but if the other person stays exactly the same, then in the end it's all the same thing. nothing changes. nothing. that's when you start questioning everything else.
i used to think that everything is in your own control. it's just a matter of whether you take it, or you leave it to become what it eventually becomes. everybody is responsible for their own lives. nothing to do with the greater powers or what we layman call fate. i still do. but now i realise that not only your efforts matter. all those who are involved matters too because one person can only do so much. so the new question is, how much is too much for a person to do? when is it does a person call it a lost cause and abandons ship? surely nobody wants to be on a sinking ship and be the only sailor bailing out water while the others have moved on to start gathering essential items to ensure their own survival

no, i still believe that what happens to a person is entirely controllable and the outcome depends on their efforts. no supernatural being to lend a helping hand. as i once heard from the big screen, if there is a GOD, he has left us to fend for ourselves already. yes i still believe that. i just realised today that a person can only do so much. the final act of commitment will be to really be the last sailor to abandon ship when all is truly lost. because sometimes, just sometimes, like you see in cliche movies, the early abandoners will row back their paper boats and help you bail out the water until water is above your chin.

its a great way to know who your comrades really are as a person. a person's true colours are only revealed in a crisis. its a sad fact but oh well, thats how the world is made. thats how the cookie crumbles

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Reality Check

Thursday, April 24, 2008

As hard as I try I cant remember exactly when I lost my innocence. When I stopped thinking that the world is full of honest man who wouldn’t seriously hurt someone, a stranger for their own benefit. The exact moment I stopped being a kid. Finals are upon most of us now and im sure none of us are spared the pressure, stress and basic hair loss(you should see my drain lol). In the midst of studying suddenly I had a thought about my 2 classmates and I was wondering if they are still up,studying like I am or are they already in Dreamland where im denied the pleasure temporarily. I suddenly had this thought. Am I still able to form true friendships at this stage of life? I was thinking of my two friends, how they, combine with me make a great threesome. We always have great fun together but we are always on our guard. Like,watching our own backs. Its hard to trust. Trust don’t come easily as it used to. I thought back on all my current great friendships, how they started and where it has lead me to. Things used to be so open and easy. Not like now. Everywhere you turn to, it appears as if either people are being eaten,screwed or are the one screwing or eating other victims. I don’t mean literally although in the current world we live in I wouldn’t be surprised if cannibalism is back in trend. I mean in other forms.

Earlier today I just had an interesting thought. People nowadays don’t get tortured medieval style anymore but we still get tortured. Mentally,psychologically, everyday we get tortured. All the stress, the balancing act that we do called life,its never ending. At least in the olden days physical torture can be seen. Its done to those who commited crime. Not amymore. These untangible form of tortures are endured by people silently,discreetly. At least I have the luxury of expressing it. Some even have to hide it from everybody in their world and pretend to be happy! That itself is a form of torture. And all we did to deserve this treatment is merely hoping to create a better life for ourselves and for those around us. That is what it means to be a human in this new millennium.

All we do is chase what is but a dream, a picture that we paint to motivate us. Tell me honestly, how many people really get their true dream? The exact life that they have dreamt of day and night, chased with every waking moment of their lives and able to die claiming that life is as exactly as they had hoped for? In a world so big and vast, with a population by the trillions you are telling me that none dare to claim this??!!!

Its as good as no dream! Why we don’t just give up dreaming and take things as they come, to work hard and achieve whatever we can manage to achieve from life and be happy with that? In our quest for our ‘dream’ we miss out on things like letting a great friendship pass us by and not turn it into a lifelong joy. Friendships like all relationships take a lot of time and effort to built. To me its like an investment.

So back to my question. In our busy little world, can we really make time to form new real meaningful friendships with complete strangers? We cant even keep the old established friendships tight!

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fuel facts!!!!

Monday, March 17, 2008

got this from a fellow blogger
the facts make my blood boil
above everything i HATE IT!!! whem someone thinks theyrE smart enough to treat ppl, TAXPAYERS! like a fool
LOATH IT!!!!


Penting !!fakta Tentang Minyak Yang Semua Kena Tahu



Baru baru ini da lam akhbar tempatan, kerajaan telah keluarkan satu statistik kononnya harga minyak di malaysia adalah yang paling rendah di rantau ini.Kemudian mereka membandingkan harga minyak malaysia dengan hargi minyak di Thailand, Singapore, Filifina dan vietnam.Persoalan sekarang apakah asas perbandingan tersebut sedangkan negara negara tersebut bukan pengeluar minyak?Hujah seperti inilah yang di gunakan oleh barisan nasional untuk memperbodohkan orang kampung.

Ok, disini fakta yang semua orang kena tahu.Pertama sekali sila lihat perbandingan harga minyak malaysia dan negara negara pengeluar minyak yang lain:-

Negara Harga minyak seliter (da lam RM)

Malaysia RM1.92
Iran RM0.29
Venezuela RM0.16
Turkemenistan RM0.39
Arab Saudi RM0.19
Mesir RM0.81

Dari data di atas, membuktikan propaganda kerajaan adalah palsu dan tidak benar.Kesemua negara pengeluar minyak di atas, harga minyak adalah di bawah RM1.00 seliter.Ada sesetengah alasan mengatakan keluaran minyak kita tak sebanyak arab saudi yang mengeluarkan sejuta tong sehari.Menurut kerajaan, pengeluaran minyak kita adalah da lam lingkungan 700 ribu tong sehari.Oleh itu kalau berdasarkan ratio pengeluaran minyak antara arab saudi dan malaysia 1 juta : 700 ribu, sepatutnya harga minyak malaysia da lam lingkungan RM0.30 sen sahaja.Kenapa arab saudi boleh kekalkan harga minyak pada 0.19 sen seliter tapi malaysia pada 1.92 sen?Bukan kah jauh bezanya?Bagaimana pula dengan venezuella yang jumlah penduduk hampir sama dengan malaysia boleh kekalkan harga minyak pada 0.16 sen seliter sahaja?Ini menunjukkan ada sesuatu yang tak kena da lam menguruskan hasil minyak da lam negara.

Ketika dato seri anwar ibrahim menjawat jawatan menteri kewangan malaysia pada tahun 1991-1998, harga minyak di kekalkan pada 1.10 sen seliter.Bagaimana beliau boleh mengekalkan harga minyak se lam a lapan tahun sedangkan harga minyak dunia naik mendadak ketika perang teluk di iraq?Pada masa yang sama juga pembangunan dan projek projek banyak juga di jalankan da lam negara tanpa perlu naikkan harga minyak.Tapi pemimpin kerajaan beri alasan untuk naikan harga minyak supaya duit tersebut dapat tampung projek pembangunan.Masalah sekarang projek pembangunan untuk faedah siapa?Rakyat atau kroni?Berepa kerat orang yang dapat faedah dari koridor pembangunan di sana sini?

Subsidi minyak yang di tang gung kerajaan mencapai 35 billion setahun.Barisan Nasional bersungguh sungguh untuk mengurang kan subsidi minyak ini kerana kalau harga minyak tidak di naikkan dengan segera ianya akan mengganggu peruntukan kerajaan bagi membangunkan koridor koridor di seluruh negara yang bernilai ratusan billion.

Yang orang asyik berhujah ialah harga minyak perlu di naikkan kerana harga minyak dunia telah naik.Ada yang mengatakan ia masalah global.So yang kita kita fikir ialah kenapa nak risau ten tang harga minyak dunia yang me lam bung naik kerana sepatutnya sebagai negara pengeluar minyak, malaysia seharusnya gembira kerana bila harga minyak dunia naik, pendapatan petronas jadi berlipat ganda.So apa masalahnya?Walaupun malaysia ada mengimport minyak dari luar untuk kegunaan tempatan, tapi bila dah net off dari pendapatan export, masih untung besar lagi.

Adakah negara akan bankrupt kalau turunkan harga minyak??

Sudah tentu tidak.Sila lihat statistik di bawah:-

Allocation untuk mega projek:-

Koridor utara : RM17.5 billion
Koridor timur : RM112 billion
Wilayah iskandar :RM47 billion
Koridor sabah :105 billion
Koridor Serawak :107 billion

Bila kerajaan membuat pelan untuk pembangunan projek di atas, sudah tentulah kerajaan mempunyai wang yang banyak.Jadi,jika kerajaan sanggup membelanjakan ratusan billion untuk projek pembangunan seperti di atas yang hanya boleh di manafaatkan oleh segelintir rakyat sahaja, kenapa nak tampung subsidi 35 billion setahun pun tak mampu?Mana yang lebih penting?Mana yang perlu di utamakan?Kebajikan rakyat atau projek mega?

Bila menteri menteri beri komen ten tang ekonomi, semuanya berkata yang bagus bagus, tapi bila bercakap soal subsidi minyak, dah cakap lain pulak.So kalau Dato najib kata turunkan harga minyak akan buat negara bankrup,bagaimana projek ratusan billion di atas? Tak bankrup kah negara dengan projek ratusan billion tersebut?Perlu di ingat bahawa di samping pendapatan hasil petroleum, negara juga mempunyai hasil dari sumber lain seperti getah, sawit, taxation, balak dan lain lain.Pendapatan tahunan negara kalau di ambil kira harga minyak yang me lam bung naik bakal mencecah 200 billion setahun.Dari jumlah tersebut susah sangat ke nak sumbangkan 50 billion untuk beri subsidi pada rakyat?

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my beloved pet

Thursday, March 13, 2008

i haf a pet named tuapui
its name is derived from the local chinese dialect which means fatty
y we gave it such a name? cos its the most meaningful word we can use to describe it. it eats nonstop n is forever hungry
and now its dying

ill sorely miss it when its finally gone....i cant even say goodbye cos im stuck in malacca. dammit!

its truly one of a kind and....and...IM GONNA MISS IT!!!!!!!!!
i guess it is better to remember it as when it was active n healthy than to see the life slowly leaving the body.....
T_T
somewhere in heaven there's a pile of almond and kuaci that has ur name on it tuapui. itll never deplete and its alwiz 3times ur height.....i love u,my pet

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carwash!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

muahahaha!
well i joined EXCO Perpaduan dan Integrasi Kaum this year under the university's Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar(MPP). i noe it sounds boring but actually its a load of fun! its the poeple involved in it that counts. and this group comprises mainly jokers and really sporting people. well....we decided to do a carwash to raise fund for ourselves. over this sem and the next we will be running alot of programmes. so far we've done two and its been a blast!
modal is our main problem usually so we decided to do a carwash to raise funds for our own use. the uni can only cover so much.

anyway......

the event started at noon. everybody has to wash n get wet. except for one. because this is open to uni students and staff we cant expect people to sit n wait while we wet,soap,polish n wax their car for 6bucks rite? so one of us will be appointed to remain dry n drive all the cars to their respective pitstops(we have wash, dry and polish&wax) and park the cars after theyve recieved their spa....guess who???ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
muahahaahaahahaha

ive never driven anyone's car but mine so far and suddenly im appointed to drive lecturer's car, students,staffs, maybe even the various deans!!!!


lolz lolz lolz

anyhoo......

ive driven SO many cars today ive lost track of how many. lets just say that from 1pm til 7pm ive barely even had 30mins of nondriving rest. its was madness! at ony one point during d peak hours ( 1-5pm) i had 5 car keys wid me. i panicked for awhile when theings got a lil chaotic cos i cudnt remember which car key was for which car. then i found a good system and everything was smooth again. ill try to list all the car types ive driven today

kancil(auto and manual)
proton wira(manual n auto)
saga(manual n auto)
gen2(manual n auto)
persona(auto) WOOHOO!!!! damn chun weih!!!
satria(manual)
nissan SUV(auto)
serena(auto)SUCKS!
ford pickup truck(manual) DOUBLE WOOHOO!!!
MyVi(auto n manual)
one kool looking old sports-like car bt i cant remember the name...

kancil manual is actually nice to drive bt the new modal like su sien's isnt nice. very.....tight. feels like a very unfriendly toy. i dunno bout u guys bt when i drive a car i can feel the difference between each one of them. each proton saga is different from the next. even if im the passanger also i can differentiate one from another.

the auto kancil has no kick. tak syok wan.

proton wira is too low for me to enjoy. i keep feeling like im abt to hit the curb or smth. my vision's drastically compromised. dah la im short by nature ady! i feel like a dwaft nia. even the kancil oso felt MUCH taller! bt the wira is very smooth n comfy. just goddamn short.

the old saga is exactly like mine so of cos my old baby is much nicer to drive bt the new saga..... since the day i saw the black saga wid black n red interior ive vowed dat ill drive one one day. today was the day haha. i felt so kool sitting in it and stuff.the interior decorator is v smart. for once proton got it rite.all the lights n kool looking buttons all are very.... i felt pimped! til i started the engine. the door rattled. the radio sucks.the whole dashboard rattled. and i havent even moved yet! OMG. i immediately took my words back abt proton for once getting things rite.
altho i got disappointed bt im still happy dat i got my wish come true XD

gen2 was very kool. very nice. surprisingly quiet. i drove that car about 5 times. had to keep shifting some of the cars cos we had limited space to accomodate all the cars we had waiting in line.the one i drove was an orange one. very very nice. hehe....maybe someday......hahaha
maybe a second hand one when ive started working n buy myself my first car. i think i drove a manual gen2 too. too many cars ady cant remember properly. i can remember the cars bt when u drive multiple protons, they tend to blend in as one after the 4th proton. that was the problem i had wid all the proton car keys. my face lighted up a million shades when my friend handed me a PERSONA!
hey i think its a cool car!! very very nice to drive too! oh-so-quiet engine and very smooth.... auto of cos

ive had my eye on satria for as long as i can remember......my dad once nearly bought me one last year.made me very happy...for a night haha. there were two today. WOOHOO!!! manual samo! its such a smooth machine......love it. surprisingly i find it not so low. still higher than wira(wad kind of idiot makes such a long n bulky car so short??!!) i was almost eye-level wid the pavement ady when i got out of the wira

i drove a charade too. same comments as the satria. lazy to repeat ady so jz reread wad i wrote lah.im a sucker for such cars!

i expected to drive small cars today only because big cars are precious cars which u dont just hand the keys over to some student u dont know to drive it without ur micro supervision. rite?
apparently not all think the way i do =D
gals are more trusting people. partly cos they arent species discriminating lot(my dad alwiz say gals cant drive).partly cos theyre just too lazy..err i mean busy to wash their car. guys tend to love their cas so much they wash it during the weekend where they inspect for hours for nonexistance scratches and an excuse to go nuts wid car accessories(car polish,car wax, screen protection, engine cleaning,tyre.....bla bla bla)

one lady saw us washing, asked for the price and promptly dropped her Nissan SUV keys into my hands without a moments hesitation. haha!
at first this guy wanted to drive it so i share share la. he got in the car n attempted to start it 3 times. not realising that its ady running. HAHA!
he got laughed at la bt when i drove it i swear if i didnt noe i wudve thought the cars not running too. the engine was SOOO quiet!! so smooth...so....WOW 10/10 baby!

my old FST lecturer took advantage of us. the price of a car is 6bucks and for a bike is 3. he bought for 2 cars n a bike. both his cars were a Ford Pick-up and a Serena. weih!
u noe how big a serface area both these vehicles have ar??!!
his bike never showed up n he was bitching abt how he wasted money. shuddup la! we din charge u xtra to wash ur pickup enuf ady lo! his pickup was full of things. we had to unload it all, wash it then reload all of it back for him. we found...cangkul, farmers hat,basket ppl use to carry lots of vegetables and various farming tools. ALL COVERED IN MUD N DUST! so was the rest of his car. tsk tsk tsk.the pickup was very fun to drive (got two sets of gear wan haha. at first i was dumbfounded bt i tried my luck n guessed it right the first time)

the serena sucked. d bigger u r, the clumsier u get. the heavier u are, the bigger inersia u generate, the harder u jerk everytime u hit the brakes. the brakes were so hard that u cant slowly ease it in. its either u step n it dun move, or u step a lil harder n it bcomes an emergency brake. swt...... =.='''

serena has a very leceh security system too. everytime u open d door u gotta swipe a card at its door wan. for security sake. at first i tot it was kool,then i jz wanted to punch the alarm til it breaks.


oh on the contrary to wat i heard the MyVi is very nice to drive. smooth....quiet...ntg spectacular bt i wud pay for one =) auto n manual alike

oh one of us drives a kool looking old sports-like car like charade bt I cant remember the name ady. not nice. i think the owner broke it or smth. he warned me b4hand that it stinks.i joked that i might faint in it while driving it. turns out i was proven right. unfortunately. it smelled of feet in there! i was suffocating in it! i never knew a car can smell so bad! i darent breath while in it. every breath is torture. i was literally holding my breath of as long as i cud. luckily my fren offered to drive it for me. as much as i wanted to try the car out, backing it out of its lot was enough to satisfy my curiosity. it was DAT bad!

anyway, towards the end everybody started pouring water on each other. doin it the obvious way wasnt fun so everybody did it by 'accident'. haha it was so funny d way it was done and the look on the receipient! totally unexpected is SO much funnier compared to when theyre running n screaming for life haha.
i wud never forget this day til d day i die

all in all it was a good day's work. ill upload pics when i get them from my frens.

tired as shit bt ive not been happier being tired

=)

oh n as yall noe ive never driven auto before til today and ive only got one thing to say:
YOU CALL THAT DRIVING??!
where's the fun in pushing a stick into D4 and jz stepping on two paddles???
BORING!
and to think that sometimes mich is lazy to drive her auto. LAZY!!!
HOW MUCH LAZIER CAN YA GET??!!!!
OMFG!!!!!!

ps: as ive said to me every cars different despite being the same modal n bla so when i say (eg) the serena sucks, i dont mean all serenas. just the one that i drove

but i do mean that whoever who drives an auto is too lazy to drive, boy uve just brought a WHOLE new meaning to too lazy for words. im literally speechless

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Post-Election

Monday, March 10, 2008

okay before the general election everybody was concerned about denying BN 2/3 only. it never occured that they could LOSE. even the opposition. penang was a sure case. thats y BN didnt even bothered much about penang this round. so ive heard. then kedah fell. uh.....according to my kedah fren kedah memang is DAP territory...bt....CM from PAS?? uh-oh.

then selangor fell *gasp*!!!!!
perak fell (huh??? wth happened???)
so far ive not heard anything remotely interesting coming fr perak n suddenly....its now PKR's??
WOW

who knew??


while everybody's busy NOT celebrating the fall of BN, i suddenly had this thought: what now?
the opposition won not cos we liked them. we juz happen to be fed up wid BN n decided that anythings better than them. the opposition candidates just happen to be at the right place at the right time.

my mum was asking me not to go out the following day cos there might be riots n stuff. im in malacca. BN won.i dun blame them. malacca is progressing very well. i wudve given them my vote too. bt ard 4pm i went out to buy the paper. n lunch. i was surprised to see the road empty. deserted. not a soul......

its like everyone's stunned. numb. im guessing nobody left the front of the tv( and the internet for those wo tv like me) except to eat n shit.

the opposition has never been handed such a HUGE responsability before....im not that confident that theyre able to pull it through. guess its a blessing in disguise that anwar's no longer wid the BN....an ex-mahathir protege is better than nothing.....

among all the accidental success the news that im most surprised wid is the role PAS now plays. being a non-muslim n a gal im sure u can understand the horror at the thought of being under PAS. its wrong of me to be so narrow-minded but i love my hands and free flowing hair haha. ive been to kelantan n terengganu.that...is not the kind of lifestyle i wud EVER survive in haha. anyway PAS managed to win seats in penang! and in kelantan(they worked really hard for that) and now...KEDAH! theyre slowly making their political way.....kinda alarming hehe....

the opposition's given a chance to perform now....let's hope that they dont screw it up. afterall this is unchartered territory....one simple mistake and......its BN back in power full force. lets hope all the politician's have learnt a big lesson: the REAL power resides in the people. u have the power ONLY when we give it. to quote Chow Yun Fatt in Curse of The Golden Flowers, " cham men pei, lei men lor" or loosely translated: wat i dont give, you dont take"

im hoping that this is a new era for Malaysia because i sure need new reasons to believe in Malaysia again

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election day!

Friday, March 7, 2008

election day!
but here at home its jz another day. y?
because all of us are underaged lol.
anyway i came across this in malaysiakini and ive got to agree wid it




There is a comment by ‘A true Malaysian’ in Malaysiakini on an article titled ‘Malays versus malaise’. The comment is :-

On Malays versus the malaise

A True Malaysian: I strongly agree with the statement that ‘Only the Malays can cure Malaysia of the Umno/BN malaise’. Malays, being the majority race of the country, are needed to lead Malaysia out of the race based politics played by BN. Malaysia cannot go far and compete with the rest of the world if majority of them are still hinged on a Ketuanan Melayu mentality make famous by Umno.

We can see the trend of this shift in mentality among the Malays. It is really heart-warming to see Rocky Bru supports Jeff Ooi, Zorro supports Chegu Bard, Haris Ibrahim and Raja Petra help out in DAP ceramah. I believe these individuals do not regard themselves as Malay, Chinese or Indian, but as a true Malaysians that will protect every Malaysian’s rights.

I am tired of BN’s brand of racial politics. I sincerely hope everyone of us can put a stop to this and I pray that the Malays can lead us towards true sense of multi-racial politics in Malaysia.
_________________
Everyone of us should read this malaysiakini article and I hope to see Penang Malays lead us towards true sense of multi-racial politics in Malaysia.



i hope this time's election isnt just another facade that the BN puts on every 4 yrs to continue their reign of bullshits

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CNY celebration

Saturday, February 23, 2008

this is my first year celebrating CNY somewhere else besides in Penang and ive got to say its d quietest celebration ive had so far.
last thurs was Chap Goh Meh and i didnt even noe til today. Oh well.....
Family is important during CNY. i just didnt realise how much til now.


last nite my uni had a function to celebrate CNY. haha better late than never eh?
anyway it made me realise that we chinese have a very rich cultural history. i knew that but i thought that was all in the past. teenagers nowadays rather be gaming online than to go for training for some sport that has not much future but i was surprised yesterday. there are still a handful of people who are willing to sacrifice their afternoons for years to perfect an art that some teenagers arent even AWARE of its existance!

last night for the first time i witnessed 8 drummers perform a piece. its not easy. the discipline involved might put the army to shame. they were so synchronized and in-time.

it was also my first time seeing smth that looks like a gasing(yes ,yes im one of those ignorant chinese kids who grew up wid Looney Tunes and Disney) but is bigger and u dont spin it on d ground. u manipulate it wid smth like a skipping rope. the guys were throwing it up on d air, spinning it around, up and around their body, between their legs....and many more tricks while not dropping it at all. the thing( which looks like an hourglass shape) just keeps spinning and spinning and spinning. the best part of it is that its not tied to the rope. its just being balanced. amazing.

the performers are all teenagers. the oldest is about 22 while the youngest couldve been 12yrs old. facinating. the lion dance performers and the drummers were equally young.

guess our chinese heritage still has a chance to survive long enough for our kids to witness with their own eyes like i did last nite.


midterm tmr! AHHH!!
cant wait for it to be OVER!!!
planning to go to A Famosa after it to celebrate

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my car!!!

Sunday, February 17, 2008

ok, once in awhile when i get on my car,i give it a once over. yesterday before driving my car out i was looking at it, thinking that ill wash it today(which i totally forgot cos im so tired). then i stayed home all day til it was evening i went home to bath,change and buy howards dinner. his housemates are cooking dinner(delicious! and only rm20 for 8ppl to eat) so i had to go back to his house anyway.after dinner i went to my car to get smth when i noticed smth different about my car. the space between my driver side back door and the back lights theres a dent. a huge dent. some SOB knocked my car and just left!!!

its not a very terrible one la....sumbody will jz hafto get a hammer n pop it out only( like when u press the plastic bottle a little too hard so it dents in n then u push fr the inside and it will pop out like normal ady) but it still bugs me. my car.....my baby.....sakit hati lo!!!!
i hope whoever responsible will burn in hell for it.for awhile la.its not exp to fix it wat bloody hell.... just apologize la! ish ish ish.

i noe it isnt my habit to post two blogs in a day bt.....ish!!!!!
i had to or ill take sum1s head off

grr.......

its one thing to wreck my own car,its another when someone else does it

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ok, once in awhile when i get on my car,i give it a once over. yesterday before driving my car out i was looking at it, thinking that ill wash it today(which i totally forgot cos im so tired). then i stayed home all day til it was evening i went home to bath,change and buy howards dinner. his housemates are cooking dinner(delicious! and only rm20 for 8ppl to eat) so i had to go back to his house anyway.after dinner i went to my car to get smth when i noticed smth different about my car. the space between my driver side back door and the back lights theres a dent. a huge dent. some SOB knocked my car and just left!!!

its not a very terrible one la....sumbody will jz hafto get a hammer n pop it out only( like when u press the plastic bottle a little too hard so it dents in n then u push fr the inside and it will pop out like normal ady) but it still bugs me. my car.....my baby.....sakit hati lo!!!!
i hope whoever responsible will burn in hell for it.for awhile la.its not exp to fix it wat bloody hell.... just apologize la! ish ish ish.

i noe it isnt my habit to post two blogs in a day bt.....ish!!!!!
i had to or ill take sum1s head off

grr.......

its one thing to wreck my own car,its another when someone else does it

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Valentine's Week

Saturday, February 16, 2008

ok peeps(lolz) Valentine's Day has just passed. I hope u enjoyed urs bcause mine was the best. not dat i haf any to compare to bt so far its been the best la! haha. but as u all noe, good things dont come alone. it alwiz comes hand in hand wid smth bad. life's prerogative i guess.....anyway
after dinner we went to play fireworks by the beach haahaa. i was so into the fireworks(was experimenting wid various combinations) that i didnt notice the port hole.....its actually an uncovered drain. just big enough for a fool like me to fall into haha. thank god i fell halfway only so only my right palm n elbow was injured. its now scabbing ady so....it only hurts when i forget its there and rub it again smth painful like my jeans buckle n zip(OUCH!!!! $*%#)

that was thursday. friday howard was feeling under the weather. i thought it was just the usual CNY la. i was on d bed the whole of wed too. only got up to go to an important lab nia.
i didnt think much of his illness cos i assumed that it was a 24hr bug like mine...he had very high fever by nightfall....i was worried bt thats it. the next morning he woke up n it hasnt improved. i was gonna take him to c d doc ady. when he changed into a new shirt, we all noticed spots all over his torso. d clinic cudnt be sure of wat he had bcos its a saturday, the labs closed so i had to rush him to d hospital to get his bloodwork done. we waited for an hr. when it was his turn the doctor didnt deem him sick enough to do a bloodwork so he gave him panadol and sent him home. we went home,he took his meds and slept. when he woke up 5hrs later all his spots n fever disappeared. i was so thankful. i went to buy us both dinner. when i got back at 8 his fever and spots cameback twofold. i panicked. his housemate suspected dengue(it is at its worse at night) so again i took him to the hospital. THIS time they took him in to do bloodtest to confirm the disease. the bloodwork took THREE hours!!!!(*^$%E%!!)
luckily got TV3 to keep me company. ive not watched tv in abt....8months so it was a nice opportunity to catch up wid an old fren haha. they were showing a modern malay show. 6hari 5malam. i actually enjoyed it. then there was the news at midnight....more politics(throws up) then they showed Honey! starring Jessica Alba (drools) in a hip hop dance theme show (gets a mop to clean up the drool). shes so hawt in that movie.....lucky whoever shes with right now.... damn dat chick can move!

anyway...i didnt managed to finish the show cos howard was finally! done ady.....he had....MEASLES!!! i had mine ady thankfully so its okay la. its the best among all the possible viral infections....i took him home n crashed at his place. his housemates were kind enough to offer to share her mattress....dun la simply think! haha

for someone who never goes to a hospital( rarely even to visit others) i just spent 5-6hours in one on two separate trips on the same day. life. funny how u wake up like its just another day in malacca and it turns out to be.......AHHHHHHHH! haha.
i was brought up never to trust GH but after yesterday........theyre not dat bad ady. maybe its malacca GH or just the improvement of standard in local facilities la bt im thankful the got my darling straighten out. yesterday he was lying on the bed,half dead with no will to live. today he is up and about like usual.with the exception of a billion red spots covering ever inch of his body surface.

everyday i thank god i have my other baby(its blue with wheels as legs) to help me thru my days. if not.......i dont even want to go down that road

exams are coming!!!!!!!! WHEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the faster they come, they faster they end, the faster i get to go home to PENANG!!!!!!!
tho i am loving malacca more and more la. when i leave there will be certain things that ill miss forever

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growing up

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

we always think that we are young because we act young. we dont feel the years go by because hey! wat difference does it make if ur 20 or 21 rite?oh ya u get to vote.big deal. anyway,it takes smth to make us realise that we arent children anymore. that we are grown up adults responsible for our own actions. that it is time for us to start making a mark on the world.to start contributing smth of value to society besides the population count. for me it was entering university. it made me realise that im now an undergrad.dat im really in uni ady. no longer in sec sch where we hafto wear uniforms and follow strict rules. not that uni got no rules bt in uni we have a bigger room to breath ma. moving to malacca has taught me to grow up too. taught me independence that cant be learnt no matter how i try by living close to home. it came wid a big price tho. everytime i come home and return to malacca i get very homesick for at least a week. it sucks.big time.but wat ye gonna do? suck it up lor.....

anyway,up til last year my life has been pretty blessed. y i suddenly say dat?cos no one has really left me. up until i was 19 the only people who passed away were both my grandpas and my greatgrandma. one of my grandpa died when i was 2months old. he remembers me bt i dont. he seemed like a really great guy n i regret not getting to noe him but i cant miss wat i never had. my other grandpa died when i was abt....std2. i vaguely knew him only bcos he was never home much. only come home in the wee hours to sleep n left the house really early.even cny i rarely see him. i dont have much memories from that period of my life so...again it doesnt affect me much. my great grandma was around for much longer. i remember her. i see her everyday. unfortunately she hadnt been well for a very long time ady. she cudnt talk or move eversince i cud remember. she was jz sumone in the house.so when she died i was sad bt in my mind she has gone to a better place. lying bedridden unable to speak or do anything isnt really living out ur golden years in comfort

after that no one died ady and i was quite ignorant of that aspect of life. death was just something that happens to other people's lives. not mine. i sympathise bt dats abt it.until last year.

it was very unexpected. its not even somebody that i see in everyday in real life. bt at one point i saw him online everyday. its somebody i met online while playing online games. he was a v nice dude. we had a lot of laughs n good times together. his death was unexpected. again i felt his lost because i know that ill never speak to him again, never listen to his crap n his witty comebacks anymore.after the initial shock i was okay ady

then see khoons dad came as a shock too. i was in school rushing for my projects last minute things when i got the msg from tri. i was soo stunned i just dropped everything and sat there for a moment. a car accident. such a simple common thing.bt the result is one of the most terrible thing in the world. i suddenly had the urge to hug my dad. to make sure that he is okay. that he hasnt been involved in anything that might take him away.i called him immediately. of all the times he didnt pick up his hp tis was one of them. it scared the shit outta me. dozens of horrible images went thru my head, each ,more gruesome than the other. finally he called me back. i cudnt be more relieved. to lose my dad when i havent even had a chance to repay him.....it wud b like if i got robbed.

when i found out that heath ledger died i was devastated. trhem being superstars u dont really think of them as mere mortals. they seem to be able to do wonderful things, make u feel various emotions thru their craft and...it blows me away whenever i watch or read smth extraordinary. he was sooo young, so handsome when he passed away. i was smitten by him since the first time i saw him in A Knights Tale.to waste such a talented pretty face over drugs is....a crime against mankind haha.


then last week i got the shocking news abt pn Ong's daughter. i dont know her personally bt ive met her once in sch. she came looking for her mum. seems like a very pleasant gal. im not affected personally bt it did came as a shock.to think of a mother having to bury ur own daughter....its so sad. makes me wana cry. so real....so scary.

todays CNY eve.happy times. yet y am i talking abt the sad side of life?
because i just received another shocking news. one of my juniors was in New Zealand. there u are allowed to drive once u hit 16yrs old. he was driving wid 2 frens when he crashed into another car.he died on the spot n his frens died on d way to the hospital.this is somebody i know. somebody i once gave advice to. a fren.he was in my daily life. we werent close bt still....hes only 16. so young.

when i was given this piece of news it made me realise: im not a kid anymore.ive grown up. i cant be fooling ard anymore.it doesnt mean im gonna start to b boring n serious all the time bt i gotta start making my life mean smth ady i guess. life isnt jz abt waking up, go to sch n try to score. i gotta....start acting like an adult. dat kinda scares me.

last nite i had a all-girls nite out dinnering at mizi's. it reminded me of old times where we sit ard n bitch abt those who werent around(haha) and joking ard having a ball taking pics. as we are bitching i suddenly realise that all of us are really goin on our own path. there were 10 of us and none of us were doin the same thing. 10 ppl,10 diff paths. soon all of us will be moved to diff parts of the globe ady.....wow
wow wow wow

im an adult now. haha
age has ntg to do wid growing up.

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life of a student

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

well its 2.15pm here and im stuck in school. today i have a total of 8hrs of labs and lectures. aih.....

the earliest was 8am. my lecturer is away in Japan so another lecturer is just covering for todays lesson then we wont be having lessons for the next 2 weeks. as we dragged ourselves out from the bed and trudge our way to class, we were comforted at the thought of the next two thursday mornings sleeping in. 845am arrived and still no lecturer. when we called her she told us that she thought the lesson was at 2.30pm. since we have another class at that time she decided that this weeks class will be forwarded to next week. WTH!!!!!!!

so we fools had to find something to do til 10am(our next class). we have been slithering from one class to another since then. my last class is at 4pm-6pm. average working hour is only 9-5 but us students have to endure 8-6. somedays poor howard even has to endure 8am classes all the way til 11pm. with only 2 hrs of break in the day for lunch and dinner.

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who says we students have it easy?

aih......

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good day ^^

Sunday, January 13, 2008

A productive day always put me in a good mood. it makes me feel like im useful ya noe? I hate going to bed thinking that im jz taking up space in this world.


I woke up around 9am. Since its Saturday, I decided to take advantage of it and laze around abit. My plan was to get to the library by 1030am bt I only managed to get out of the house around 1045am. Oops. Got to the library around 11am. Gosh there were so many people!!! The car park’s were full and all the good tables were taken. Fortunately I managed to share a table wid another malay student who was der to on9 n study. The library has free wifi and its FAST!! My streamyx wud give me maximum 60kbps bt so did the library today! Haha. I was feeling lucky already. I settled down and started to update my things…blogs, friendster, email. Then I set my deluge to work and went to work myself. Since there’s a lot of people today my butt didn’t freeze like it usually does. As the library was closing at 2pm I finished my revision and my laptop battery was jz about to finish. Perfect timing.

Eversince I saw the preview of Warlords on the first week of dec I have been dying to see it. I suddenly envisioned the best lunch to make my day a better one than it already is. I closed my laptop drove to Mahkota Parade ( kinda like the Gurney Plaza of Malacca) and went up to GCS as quick as I can. I got there just in time. At 210pm I bought a ticket to the movie Warlords which is at 230pm. I went down to buy myself a large Diet Coke and a large CURLY FRIES!!!(dun u just love them curly deepfried gonna-kill-u-softly-sumday yummy potatoes??). the movie turned out to be quite good. I noticed at the end of the show that every movie that Jet Li does, he dies at the end of it. Be it the villain or the hero, he ALWAYS dies (hell freezes over if he didn’t!)

Its my first Takashi movie and I cant help but think he’s damn goodlooking! Acting not so good la…. Or maybe its just the part that he played la.

Anyhoo….. after the movie I went to the loo. There was a long que and this malay girl was standing behind me. Just as I was goin into a stall I heard her tell her friend “ Ya Allah bagilah aku kekuatan untuk bertahan”

I mean, what u gonna do, pee in ur pants?

Now for those unfortunate souls that have been dragged by me to go looking for that pillow-cum-blanket thingy, im sorry. I saw my fren Mei Lin who has this nice fluffy pillow that doubles as a blanket in her car. I remember that my darling alwiz freezes in the cinema and I really liked hugging that pillow. So I vowed to get one for my own car. On my bday I dragged both my frens to hunting for it( thanks u guys. That was a great! Day) and I dragged my mum n my not so feeling well bro hunting for it too. There were plenty of really nice ones bt I didn’t buy any cos I had found THE ONE. The one pillow that I wanted to put in my car. To hug while my darling drives. To use as a blanket when im cold.

Cute eh?





I found one in Prangin Mall but it was old. It had a hole. And it was dirty. U cant expect me to pay the exact same price for smth new that looks like wat it shud after 3yrs of purchase. Imagine how itll look like in 3yrs! Its skin colour bt the one I saw was closer to light brown. I cant hug dat! When I cudnt find a decent one in penang I decided to try Malacca. On the first try I didn’t managed to find it. Howard said give it up, im never gonna find it.

Today after the movie I decided to give it another try. I haven’t tried this mall yet cos howard said dat wudnt have wat I wanted. HAH! The first soft toy shop I walked in had 4. FOUR!!! All in perfect condition. They even had other designs but this piggy was wat I wanted. There were only 8 left in total. Now 7. Haha. After that I decided it was time for me to go home. Twas around 530pm. If I hurry I cud be in time for a hike behind my hostel. The que to pay the parking ticket was SO long dat it cost me an xtra 1.50 by the time I got to my turn. Twas rather embarrassing cos I only had 2 bucks wid me and the total was 3.50. the rest was all 10s. I knew if I inserted rm10 itll return my change in 50cents. Embarrassing!!!!!! Luckily the machine don’t accept rm10 bills and a lady was kind enough to lend me. I went into a shop to xchange my 10 for smaller bills. The gal took out a rm5 bill n 5 rm1 bills but only gave me 9bucks. Do I look gullible to u? when I asked her, she sheepishly handed me my rm1. Nah! Anyway, I returned

dat kind lady n went on my way.

this is just half the line.....







Took a nice drive home and went for my hike!

My darling was busy so I went alone bt the hike trail is usually swamped wif people. Families…. Couples….ppl fr my hostel…..today was no different. The usual 1.5hr hike took me 40mins only today. Guess without company u do travel faster! Haha. It was just me, my mp4 and a stick that I picked up along the way. It’s a nice big stick. I kept it wid me for future hikes. Since I was early I decided to get to know my neighbourhood. Turns out I was living in a Chinese neighbourhood. There was even an Bungaraya MCA house! Hahaha! All this while I never knew. Parking was kinda expensive so I wanted to even my budget out by eating at home. I wanted to eat sum fruit n vegetables too. Conclusion: salad!!!!!! Hahaha.



Who knew 2 apples, a carrot n baby tomatoes cud turn out such a big volume of food?









Took me an hour to finish( was watching Everybody Loves Raymond while eating)

Went to pick Howard up from his frens place after that dat concludes my day!

Haha

Talk about productivity.

So, did I had a good day? U bet I had a GREAT day!

~Independence is the key to happiness~

Is wat I always say.

Make urself happy first before u can even consider making others happy. Cos u cant exactly be the best anything if u urself are miserable. =)


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Its a new sem!!!

Saturday, January 5, 2008

new year. New sem. Same old shit n crap to deal with. BUT with new tools to handle em =)

For one, ive got my car with me!!!!!!!!! WHEE!!!!!! My dad was kind enough to bring it all the way from Penang for me. Its a haven. My cars a haven n my dads an angel (u dun hear me say dat alot)

im nw waiting for my laundry to finish and i just realise a few things. Malacca is a sleepy town. No matter who comes it will alwiz remain a sleepy town. It just sucks the life outta ya. Dunno y. Once ur here all u wana do is laze n sleep. the weather is either scorching hot which makes ya wanaa escape to ur room n sit in front of the fan or itll rain heavily which makes u wana hide under d covers n drift in n out of reality. wats up wid dat??

school sucks the life outta ya too. no matter how early u sleep when u get to a 8am class u cant help by yawn. yawn yawn YAWN.

life is great now thanks to my dad for letting me have my car in Melaka. woohoo!!!

grocery shopping had never been dat fun or convenient!!!

ive had sleeping problems here for about 2months now n i alwiz blamed d matress. nw ive got a new matress n still the problem persisted. so last friday i went to buy myself a nice little pillow. BAM! problem gone. i slept like a baby!!! twas the best investment so far.

haha

week1 of school is over and im feeling optimistic. schoolwork hasnt started pouring in yet bt ive a feeling that cant be too far away nw. . .

so arm with my baby(car) and my new cuddly pillow i shall face tis sem n bull thru it!
wish me luck!!!!!

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