abandonship!

ever get tired of doing the exact same thing over and over and over again?
i do

ever just think that no matter how you try, some things never change and then u wonder if its,sigh, even worth the bother?
i do

ever just give up and leave it to fate?
i have but more often than not i will try my best to fix things

here's the interesting thing:
circumstances, events,decisions can all be changed if you put in enough effort into things. that's what i believe anyway. BUT when it concerns other people, now that's when it becomes tricky. Oh you may try as much as you want, as hard as you want and as long as you can but if the other person stays exactly the same, then in the end it's all the same thing. nothing changes. nothing. that's when you start questioning everything else.
i used to think that everything is in your own control. it's just a matter of whether you take it, or you leave it to become what it eventually becomes. everybody is responsible for their own lives. nothing to do with the greater powers or what we layman call fate. i still do. but now i realise that not only your efforts matter. all those who are involved matters too because one person can only do so much. so the new question is, how much is too much for a person to do? when is it does a person call it a lost cause and abandons ship? surely nobody wants to be on a sinking ship and be the only sailor bailing out water while the others have moved on to start gathering essential items to ensure their own survival

no, i still believe that what happens to a person is entirely controllable and the outcome depends on their efforts. no supernatural being to lend a helping hand. as i once heard from the big screen, if there is a GOD, he has left us to fend for ourselves already. yes i still believe that. i just realised today that a person can only do so much. the final act of commitment will be to really be the last sailor to abandon ship when all is truly lost. because sometimes, just sometimes, like you see in cliche movies, the early abandoners will row back their paper boats and help you bail out the water until water is above your chin.

its a great way to know who your comrades really are as a person. a person's true colours are only revealed in a crisis. its a sad fact but oh well, thats how the world is made. thats how the cookie crumbles