Reality Check

As hard as I try I cant remember exactly when I lost my innocence. When I stopped thinking that the world is full of honest man who wouldn’t seriously hurt someone, a stranger for their own benefit. The exact moment I stopped being a kid. Finals are upon most of us now and im sure none of us are spared the pressure, stress and basic hair loss(you should see my drain lol). In the midst of studying suddenly I had a thought about my 2 classmates and I was wondering if they are still up,studying like I am or are they already in Dreamland where im denied the pleasure temporarily. I suddenly had this thought. Am I still able to form true friendships at this stage of life? I was thinking of my two friends, how they, combine with me make a great threesome. We always have great fun together but we are always on our guard. Like,watching our own backs. Its hard to trust. Trust don’t come easily as it used to. I thought back on all my current great friendships, how they started and where it has lead me to. Things used to be so open and easy. Not like now. Everywhere you turn to, it appears as if either people are being eaten,screwed or are the one screwing or eating other victims. I don’t mean literally although in the current world we live in I wouldn’t be surprised if cannibalism is back in trend. I mean in other forms.

Earlier today I just had an interesting thought. People nowadays don’t get tortured medieval style anymore but we still get tortured. Mentally,psychologically, everyday we get tortured. All the stress, the balancing act that we do called life,its never ending. At least in the olden days physical torture can be seen. Its done to those who commited crime. Not amymore. These untangible form of tortures are endured by people silently,discreetly. At least I have the luxury of expressing it. Some even have to hide it from everybody in their world and pretend to be happy! That itself is a form of torture. And all we did to deserve this treatment is merely hoping to create a better life for ourselves and for those around us. That is what it means to be a human in this new millennium.

All we do is chase what is but a dream, a picture that we paint to motivate us. Tell me honestly, how many people really get their true dream? The exact life that they have dreamt of day and night, chased with every waking moment of their lives and able to die claiming that life is as exactly as they had hoped for? In a world so big and vast, with a population by the trillions you are telling me that none dare to claim this??!!!

Its as good as no dream! Why we don’t just give up dreaming and take things as they come, to work hard and achieve whatever we can manage to achieve from life and be happy with that? In our quest for our ‘dream’ we miss out on things like letting a great friendship pass us by and not turn it into a lifelong joy. Friendships like all relationships take a lot of time and effort to built. To me its like an investment.

So back to my question. In our busy little world, can we really make time to form new real meaningful friendships with complete strangers? We cant even keep the old established friendships tight!