Being in Love is a Temp State of Euphoria

Heaven is a place here on Earth.

What if, heaven was given to you here on Earth? only to be taken away from you. it was just a teaser. good things never last. all good things must come to an end. you know what i think? i think these proverbs are invented to just placate those who have loss what they had. to keep them from doing something stupid. i think these people are morons. if what they lost are SO important to them, so dear to their hearts, you think these people will just roll over and let you have your way? you think some century old sayings are going to satisfy their frustrations and they would just let it rest? HA!


Life is strange. just when you think that you have it all figured out, circumstances comes back and bites you in the ass and gives you a whole set of hands to play. ugh. no matter what you do, no matter how much you mull over things, you can never pin it down to the last T. that was why i never bothered to plan too ahead. because i know somehow what i planned will have to be altered and screwed in so many ways a pornstar would be impressed. why do i even bother to anticipate? why bother at all?


i only bother when it comes to something important. like i said, if something really means that much to you, you wouldnt just roll over and let fate stamp its ugly feet all over your body. let it take what it wants from you and serve it coffee and biscuit while it trashes your life. you beat it with a stick. you poison the coffee you serve. you serve it mold biscuits. you make it so unpleasant fate will think thrice before messing with your life again. THATs what i call fighting back!

but when the price in hand co operates and plays right into the hands of fate, wanting the exact same thing fate wants, you can help but feel defeated. if you really love something, let it go. if its yours, itll comeback, right? i dare you to let all your pets go into the street. see if all comes back to you anot.

im a risk taker. i love playing with the odds. i love the risk. the challenge. the rebel in me. but somethings are just to precious to leave it to chance. oh well. i always said, the best way to learn n judge ones character is when that person faces a challenge, a fork in the road. and then we sit back and watch which road he/she takes. sometimes the end result doesnt matter. its more of the process. the way that individual makes that decision. what we learn may hurt us more than ever before. or makes us happy beyond imagination.

at the end of the day, it doesnt really matter. its all relevant.


live together, die alone.

as sad as that may sound, its about the most truthful thing ive ever heard from a TV series.