6336 days, 03 hours and counting

400!!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

WOW. really? has it been that long? somebody pinch me. OUCH! that hurts!

haha. my...my..... 400!. i expected the day to be close but i didnt expect it to be SO fast! time sure flies..... well what can i say? i love you darling! you are my heart and soul. my morning coffee that gets me thru the day. like a refreshing shower that washes off the day's grime off me. my entertainer when there's no tv to watch,partly because we don't own one. my downloader. my uploader. the one who unzips my inner passion and inner thoughts. the one who zips me up with a mouthful of his delicious cooking. your body temperature is always warmer than i am whenever i am around. thats how you keep my heart warm i guess. without you......

my life would be bleak. because without all the things above, life is just a continuous motion. it is not living. sure i can replace all that you are to me with something else. with time anything can be replaced. replacing a piece of diamond with chipped glass is still replacing.

but i foresee great future of us together. no matter where we are. no matter what shit we are in. as long as i have you, and you have your computer, we will both be happy and we will always end the day in a happy note.


relationships are hard. mine isn't all clouds in the sky either. but with patience and a little restraint, it can be a cloud. a tiny one. just the right size.

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finally, comprehension dawns on me

Saturday, September 20, 2008

During my free time, one of my fave pastimes are to just sit back with my current no 1 artist blaring from my stereo while i let my mind wonder freely without constraints. its a form of relaxation.

Without inhibitions of course, I would ponder about things that my limited knowledge based brain would find curious about. lately ive acquired this little taste for liquor. not alcohol, liquor. what is the difference, you ask? well, alcohol means you like anything that has alcohol in it. liquor means only the good stuff. ive developed a strong attraction to all the lords of hard liquor. JIm Bean.... Jhonny Walker..... Jack Daniels.... ESPECIALLY Jack Daniels! or whom i fondly call JD =D.

my sweet darling managed to get his hands on a Black Label Jhonny Walker (thank you!) at a tax free price beginning of this semester. suffice to say when i took my first sip it was overwhelming. no, i didn't get drunk( that's all you people can think of eh?) but i that was when i realized the difference between the locally brewed brandy and a famed brewed liquor. WOW.

so now one of my fave pastime has been altered a bit. i now enjoy sitting back in a comfortable position on the bed/couch and watch a good movie be it old or new WITH a glass of Jhonny Walker in my hand =D

trust me when i say that my new interest got my daddy a little worried hehe. if you are reading this daddy-o, let me RE-assure you again that i know what i am doing and i know my limit. oh and FYI: i have your genes. it takes quite a lot to knock me out lol.

anyway, the reason im writing this entry is because one of the things which i always ponder but never quite got it. i feel very relaxed and at home with a glass of heaven in my hand. why would i want to venture out in this tropical heat that we live in and make myself sit in a pub to drink with my friends where the price of 2 glasses can be used to buy a litre of whatever that i was drinking? after that, i get to stumble out of the pub, all blurry eyed and chemically induced happiness, i have to drive home. ... errr..... nah.
however, unexpectedly i got my answer.

you see, i believe i am not the only one who thinks that way. i think most girls think that way too. that is why i think girls who goes clubbing are there to dance and socialize, not to drink. guys however, are more to picking up girls( socialize la) and to prove that their manhood is er... bigger(?) than their buddies. it is like, if no one gets drunk then it is not a good night. =/

so for someone like me who doesnt like to dance( i have 2 left feet) and prefers to sit back n enjoy good entertainment and the drink, the pub isnt a place for me. until last night.

i was home doing my system, at the verge of suicidal mainly because my LOST season 3 just ended and i dont have season 4. like an addict whose last fix just ended, i was ready to kill whoever it takes to get my hands on season 4 =D

my darling came to my rescue. he wanted to go to his frens house to get movies or whatever that they have downloaded using my external. turns out that his frens are having a drinking party at their porch. knowing that i could use some de-stressing, he invited me to go along. after 3months my Jhonny Walker is still above half bottle. since im going to crash someone's drinking party i thought it is only polite to bring something.

we arrived to find 7 guys halfway through a litre of Rum( locally brewed) and 3 bottles of beer. next to their stash, my black label stood out lol. so we began drinking. its funny to sit back and watch the guys try to get their housemates drunk. hehe. there was this guy who cant hold his liquor at all. after a few glasses, he happily sits at the corner smiling to himself. no longer able to talk but if u put a cup in his hand, he will happily down it in one go. lol. eventually they carried him to his room. i knew went to stop so i was okay. the thing about happy guys is that their tongue gets loose. many things come out. we began catching up. up til now ive heard of these guys and snipets of their stories but last night i think i made 7 new friends. hehe.

so now i know. why people pay many more times than they have to to drink in a place like a pub with friends. drinking in a group is so much more fun. esp when someone has a little too much to drink =D


i still dont like pubs and would never dare to drink as much as i want to if i was drinking in one, but i think i would keep a bottle of hard liquor or two with me so that i can invite my friends over for a drinking/sleepover party. for fun's sake.


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Being in Love is a Temp State of Euphoria

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Heaven is a place here on Earth.

What if, heaven was given to you here on Earth? only to be taken away from you. it was just a teaser. good things never last. all good things must come to an end. you know what i think? i think these proverbs are invented to just placate those who have loss what they had. to keep them from doing something stupid. i think these people are morons. if what they lost are SO important to them, so dear to their hearts, you think these people will just roll over and let you have your way? you think some century old sayings are going to satisfy their frustrations and they would just let it rest? HA!


Life is strange. just when you think that you have it all figured out, circumstances comes back and bites you in the ass and gives you a whole set of hands to play. ugh. no matter what you do, no matter how much you mull over things, you can never pin it down to the last T. that was why i never bothered to plan too ahead. because i know somehow what i planned will have to be altered and screwed in so many ways a pornstar would be impressed. why do i even bother to anticipate? why bother at all?


i only bother when it comes to something important. like i said, if something really means that much to you, you wouldnt just roll over and let fate stamp its ugly feet all over your body. let it take what it wants from you and serve it coffee and biscuit while it trashes your life. you beat it with a stick. you poison the coffee you serve. you serve it mold biscuits. you make it so unpleasant fate will think thrice before messing with your life again. THATs what i call fighting back!

but when the price in hand co operates and plays right into the hands of fate, wanting the exact same thing fate wants, you can help but feel defeated. if you really love something, let it go. if its yours, itll comeback, right? i dare you to let all your pets go into the street. see if all comes back to you anot.

im a risk taker. i love playing with the odds. i love the risk. the challenge. the rebel in me. but somethings are just to precious to leave it to chance. oh well. i always said, the best way to learn n judge ones character is when that person faces a challenge, a fork in the road. and then we sit back and watch which road he/she takes. sometimes the end result doesnt matter. its more of the process. the way that individual makes that decision. what we learn may hurt us more than ever before. or makes us happy beyond imagination.

at the end of the day, it doesnt really matter. its all relevant.


live together, die alone.

as sad as that may sound, its about the most truthful thing ive ever heard from a TV series.

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when facing a rock......

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Life as it is....

im the type of person who when i hit a wall, i pause for awhile. only awhile tho. then i start hitting it. i keep hitting it till i bulldoze my way through. dat is if i really want to get through. eventually the wall crumbles and i get my way! ehehe...... stubborn eh?

but what happens when i come across a wall that is enforced with steels and ingrown roots that are as old as they come? sigh..... eventually my head hurts from all that butting and i stop. i give it one last kick and take another pause. i then either take a shortcut that leads to route 2 or i bomb the wall and head back the way i came.

what i am saying is that when things dont go my way, im forced to adjust to the situation. im forced to accomodate what will now be a thorn in my side. i wont give in wo a fight! but when things are set in stones, we eventually have to accept that not all stones will corrode.

oh btw a shout out to my uncle who turns 47 today! happy bday!! he is also one boulder of cement that never bulks. never!

my kind of peeps lol

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