i recently spent about 5days in Hong Kong. longer than my usual holidays but... let me tell you, it was too short and it was too long.
i went with my mum and my younger brother (pictures will be uploaded later,not kinda lazy). My last night at Penang i slept at 2am (didn't want to leave my fishes alone lol) and my mum woke me up at 330am (shudve just stayed up). Groggily we made our way to Penang International airport to catch our 6am flight. when we got there, the check in line was soooooooooo long!
FYI: those who has a printer at home, please do an online check-in. you can print your boarding pass at home. online check-in and sms check-in can be done 48hrs before your flight. i stayed up long enough to see the plane take off. the feeling of being lift off the ground is my fave part. the view from above is breathtaking. Penang is truly very magnificant. as soon as we flew pass Penang, i went to sleep.
FYI: bring a pillow. sleeping practically upright for 4hrs with no place to rest your head is a very fatiguing experience.
i went to Hong Kong from 29th Nov until 4th Dec 2009. the beginning of winter. PLEASE BRING NORMAL CLOTHES AND 1 JACKET!!!!
EVERYONE told us that it would be cold. chilling. dry wind which will crack your lips. WRONG!! the wind was a little chilling and HK is less humid than Malaysia but i was sweating in my 2 layer top!
we didnt use the gloves we bought, the hats we borrowed and the warmest jackets were only used when we went to The Peak! (more on that later) Since we thought we would be under warm jackets all the time, we did not bring our best Sunday clothes. so... we looked like part of the poor when we were in Hong Kong. When you live in a tropical country, you dont really invest in nice looking clothes that keep you warm.
We stayed in the Kowloon Hotel. VERY nice hotel. highly recommended.the services are good. the concierge is very knowledgeable and all sorts of convenience is but a walk away. Usual price for a deluxe room for 2 is HKD2000 per night but my mum the wise booked and paid 5months ahead, during the height of H1N1 for only HKD600 a night
the first thing we did when we arrived at the airport is to get an Octopus card. its a cash card that can be used for virtually anything (MTR, bus, even at a convenient store!)
HKD 50 for deposit and HKD 100 reload for the first time. subsequent reloads are at a minimum HKD50. at the end of your trip, you can return the card and you will get back your cash, including all the credit that is left inside.
the website says that there is a free coach to the Kowloon Hotel but apparently we didn't read the fine prints. In order to take the free shuttle, we had to take the Airport Express Train (HKD190 per pax) to the nearest station and then the free shuttle will take you to your hotel doorstep.Since we just got there and we had no sense of distance, we paid for the Express. it was a very pleasant ride. very comfortable and very fast. we had glimpses of Hong Kong along the way.
Once we checked into the hotel, we set out to get food!!!
stumbled upon a very nice, very old fashion noodle and beef shop. DELICIOUS!!!!
turns out right beside our hotel has a MTR station called Tsim Sha Tsui station. Hong Kong has one of the best public transportation i have ever seen. everything is connected to everything! there is no need to be above ground when everything is connected underground! the taxi's are very very costly but in Hong Kong, everyone walks. we walked from sunrise to sundown. we return home every night exhausted but satisfied and worth the agony we all felt on our soles. it was a workout holiday! one i am thankful for because i was able to enjoy all the wonderful meals and not feel guilty.
we basically explored the neighbourhood around our hotel on the first day. there is a big chain of duty free shops called Sasa. they seriously sell cheap cosmetics and perfume. arond our hotel we found any kind of Factory outlet stores imaginable. Esprit?YES! Adidas?YES! Giordano??YES!! there were cheap clothes everywhere! and we went mad with shopping. not on the first day. first day was just for surveying ^^
we stopped by at a mouthwatering dessert shop for teatime and went home to rest. at night, we set off to Temple Street, a very well known must see tourist place. for those who have good flee markets in your hometown, don't go.it was highly recommended by an Indonesian tourist couple who we shared a table and swapped stories with at the earlier noodle shop. so we went hungry and excited. since it was our first day, we were not sure of the MTR stations and we were slightly disorientated. when we finally found our way, we were highly disappointed. everywhere everyone was selling seafood. expensive seafood. a Yong Chou fried rice was HKD37!!!!! after hunting in vain for food other than seafood and finding none, we resigned ourselves to one of the shops. we ordered the fried rice, a simple stir fry vege with garlic and a deep fried squid (which wasn't prepared by that shops cook, later we learned) and it cost us a large HKD190!! it was the single most expensive meal we had in those 5 days and the least delicious. all lessons must come at a price. we were thankful to have learnt it quickly and swiftly. the streets were strewn with poor imitations and expensive prices. we quickly got out of there. on the way out we saw many food courts. oh well.... when you are the foreigner, you can't escape paying the price for being new.
we got home, exhusted. ever since we landed in Hong Kong, we only sat down for less than 2hours. we fell asleep even before our heads touched the pillow.
~the end~
I was searching for good movies to watch. Recently I've seen some funny Singaporean shows like Where Got Ghost and Money No Enough 2, and they were pretty hilarious so I set about looking for Malaysian movies that I might enjoy.
That's when I stumbled upon filmmaker Amir Muhamad. And his films have a tendency of being banned in Malaysia.
The first film that got banned, The Last Communist, is a film supposedly inspired by communist party leader Chin Peng and is basically interviews with the people who shared the same hometown with him. The film takes a satirical approach by inserting songs modeled after propaganda music.
The second film that got banned, Apa Khabar Orang Kampung, is a show about a village of South Thailand where retired members of the communist party of neighbouring Malaysia goes about in their daily lives, inter spread with a Thai radio soap opera. There were no mention of the word communist in the whole film and its a continuation from The Last Communist, which may explain why it got banned (not really).
His latest film, Malaysian Gods, was spared the ban from Malaysian authorities, but instead they chose another tactic which is to limit screening from cinemas and TV, effectively banning the show without actually banning it. You can still buy a copy to watch at home, or have it screened on campus, which will definitely get the show right in front of the future generation of voters, where is matters most.
The film chronicles the key events leading to and after the sacking of Anwar Ibrahim and his subsequent trial by fire for corruption. The whole film is done in Tamil. It also chronicles the events of the past 10 years after the fated Reformasi protests.
The film manages to reveal that, among the older generations there is a guarded reservation when it comes to airing their thoughts, while the younger generation is more vocal and less afraid to give their opinions on the matter, indeed this will be the new political landscape and against all this, dry satirical humour perpetuates the film
The director has announced a hiatus from filmmaking, and this will probably be his last film for a long time to come, seeing as to how he never gets a chance to screen any of his documentaries to the public at large. However, he has found a willing audience down north at the Singapore International Film Festival, and I hope to be able to enjoy this film soon.
You can download Apa Khabar Orang Kampung from:
http://rapidshare.com/files/270087651/Village_People_Radio_Show_-_Amir_Muhammad.part1.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/270105792/Village_People_Radio_Show_-_Amir_Muhammad.part2.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/270398685/Village_People_Radio_Show_-_Amir_Muhammad.part3.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/270413993/Village_People_Radio_Show_-_Amir_Muhammad.part4.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/270441120/Village_People_Radio_Show_-_Amir_Muhammad.part5.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/270458538/Village_People_Radio_Show_-_Amir_Muhammad.part6.rar
Read http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking%2BNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_450337.html for background.
Let's start off with some statistics. Singapore's Marine Industry is the backbone of their economy generating S$18.7 billions dollars of manufacturing output in 2008 alone. The marine cluster which consists of some 3000 companies provide 20 per cent for ship repair, 70 per cent for jack-up rig builds and 70 per cent for the conversion of Floating, Production, Storage and Offloading (FPSO) units in the world.
Back when I was interning at Keppel FELS, the company had three yards around the west area. I'm sure there are some historical reason behind the separation but anyway I think it would have been more convenient for everything to be in one centralized location. A colleague once related to me that during the SARS crisis few years ago, they had half the engineering office working at a separate location; in case of a quarantine, at least only 50% of the staff will be affected (the other 50% will be in for one heck of a working week). However after a period of time, everybody was pulled back because it was just too much of a hassle (or maybe the risk had lowered enough, who knows).
However the Integrated Yard seems like a nice idea from Sembcorp Marine. It's size is a massive 206ha, or about 490 football fields combined! It will be doing pretty much everything from rig building, ship repair, conversion, etc. From an efficiency standpoint, bringing everything under one location will definitely improve logistic cost and allow for more efficient use of personnel. It's an interesting idea but with no firm completion deadline (yet).
Keppel Corp on the other hand have enjoyed huge profits following the S$13 billion of contracts back in 2008. A year later, with many of rigs delivered, it is now looking at securing S$2 billion or more from Petrobras next year, which will keep the yards busy from 2013 through to 2018. However, Brazil has historically requested that a percentage of the rig construction activities carried out with local content. Nonetheless, the whole company stand to gain a huge opportunity to increase their contract orders if the deal goes through in 2010. Which is just nice because that's when I graduate =P.
This deserves its own entry.
When i heard that MJ died, i was under alot of pressure back then. didnt get a chance to have a good cry. he deserves that much. after speaking to a lot of people only i realized how lucky i was. a lot of people knew who MJ was. heard his songs. knew what he was famous for. i have real memories of watching him perform. no, i didnt go to his concerts but i watched him perform on tv all the time. i had his DVDs which i watch so often i know his videos by hard. i memorized his songs. i was a real fan. most people i talked to didnt have that. they missed the magic that was a big part of my childhood before i was 7 years old.
MJ was working hard for his comeback show. all sold out. all the hype. most people just wanted to see him fall and say "I told you so". Few wanted him to succeed. thats huma nature. Bad press sells more than good press. Hollywood is so superficial.
when i heard that he died, i was shocked and upset. but at the back of my mind, i thought, "At least he didnt perform and become a laughingstock. at least he died with whatever dignity he had left.". i loved MJ but i didnt think a 50year oldman who hasnt performed in decades could just pick up where he left off. when he was famous, there was only 1 MJ. no one could do the Moonwalk. no one moves like him. nowadays theres SO MANY!
what if he got up to stage and performed less than they did?
i wanted to remember him as the dancer who made me go AWWWWWW when i was 5.
when i heard that the movie was coming out, i thought that it was just a ploy, a scam by Sony and all those companies who felt cheated cos they invested in someone who died before the big bucks came in.
i was thinking, if he was going to be bad during the show, what more when he was filmed practising?
even so, i was a huge fan and i just had to see for myself what happened to my idol the last few months of his life.
it was like a time warp. he didnt change. the way he moved, the way he sang, it was as if im 5 again.
he was perfect. he redid some things and updated parts that werent so relevant anymore. you can see how hard he is working all the time. everything he did, he did it for the fans. you can tell, working for him is a whole new experience you cant get with any other stars. for one, he is hands on. he has to be there for every single thing. every tempo, every light, every cue. theres not a song rehersal that he did without dancing, testing his moves to perfection. he did nothing halfway. he had to have everything exactly the same way ALL the time.it is... you cant help but admire his dedication. no song was too small, even a simple hand gesture or where the musician stood mattered. all eyes of course would be on him when he performs but he cares that the audience would be able to see the guitarist face.
he genuinely cares.
he is so sweet...so soft and gentle all the time.
from the way everyone treats him, you can tell he is like this fragile little flower. no one raises their voices, no one contradicts him, everyone is patient. its like dealing with a child. and i believe that is MJ's mindstate. he never matured into adulthood. which is why he loves children. they are his maturity level. which is why i believe he never did any of those horrible unspeakable things. children dont molest other children.
you can tell also that the way he composes his music, his moves developed differently from others. he gets a vision of something. when he thinks its perfect, he will work towards it until he sees the perfection. those who work with him know better than to do other than what he say. and they can see the genius of his idea.
all his dancers are well built, professional and the best in the world.
they also look like they came out of a dancer factory. all muscles and funky hairstyles, suave, smooth...
take a look at MJ. he is thin as a stick and fair (vampire like) and he doesnt have an inch of muscle on him. he doesnt exagerrate his moves like his dancers. which makes him stand out in the crowd. he is slick,fast,and cool. his moves have not been compensated by his age.
what else can i say?
they filmed new videos for the concert. to be played at the screen on certain songs. all of them were wonderful. not too much graphic til it looks like a video game but the made 11 people into 11 000 people. that was awesome.
last month i saw an expose saying that MJ was using 8 different kind of heavy usage drugs for many years now. go watch the show. he did not look like a drug addict at all. he made jokes, danced while dealing with the sound crew, sang live while dancing around like a monkey..he was lucid. as lucid as can be. he didnt even look 50!
certainly wasnt dancing like one.
i thought it was a tragedy that he died before he could regain his dignity and performed 50nights in front of his fans. to feel loved again. back into his glory days.
now i know that it was a blessing he died. if it werent for his timely death, the whole world would not have been able to see him in his glory.
instead of making his comeback on a stage in London, he made a comeback on the big screens. the whole world watches it simutaneously everyday,many times a day for 2 whole weeks. and later i can watch anytime i want on my illegally downloaded HD version.
so Michael, rest in peace. you have reclaimed your dignity and your fame. even in death
PS: today i celebrate 800 happy days with my darling.was going to write a post about it but i decided MJ was a better post
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn damn DAMN!!!!
my stupid SE had a glitch. when i cleared my outbox, it deleted my inbox!!!
i had 600+ messages inside my inbox. i bought my phone roughly 2 years ago and i have always kept messages which meant alot to me. each sweet message would be kept and appreciated from time to time. and now they are all GONE!!!!
T_T
2years worth of memories.....T_T
every staged of my relationship had its perks....
my darling was so sweet when he tried to get me interested in him....
he was very infactuated when we first started.....
when he was apart from me, faraway in sabah, he would send me messages that would make a stone melt....
when he was working in singapore, he would make it up to me all day with loving words.... and funny stories....
when we fought, harsh words are exchanged but not as much as words which allows us both to realize what the other really means....i keep those to remind me that no 2 person are the same and that we all require a little understanding now and then.
now it is all gone......T_T
i mourn the loss of memories..... from my darling, from my father, my mother, my goodlooking brother, i mourn the messages where my bestfriend told me how she misses me sitting beside her in class, how we used to hangout all the time.... haha even the one where she would buy me a bell if i were a cute cow....dont ask me how that conversation started.....i dont know.
im not one of those who sit by the corner and read 2year old messages all day... but i am sentimental to the core....sigh
i know what people say.... sometimes you have got to throw the old memories away to make room for new ones.
a sense of relief did come after the grief left.
its like ive been given a new.... a second chance.....
i had bad and good memories in my handphone...memories that can still cause hurt when i read it.... but now i aspire to keep good memories and ncver to make another bad one.....
today happened to be 1 of our anniversaries, i hope it is a good omen =)
Today I celebrate my 26th month anniversary!!! Whee~!!!!
Its been a long run….. never thought I would make it this far. We have had quite a number of obstacles and… we made it!
Hehe
My time in university is almost over. Life is getting harder and the things we learn are getting more and more complicated. My carefree life of a minimum responsibility person is coming to an end. Soon, I am an ADULT *gasp*
It is going to be the longest period of my life. 30 odd years before I can claim my retirement. People often refer to that stage in life as the golden years. Really? Being old and your body not being as reflexive as it used to be, having everything droop, all the abuses you inflicted onto your body is now coming back to haunt you…. Doesn’t seem like much of golden to me.
God forbid should any long term disease befall onto you. Or your partner. When I see an old lady or an old man who has lost their partner long time ago, I feel very sad. When you have worked hard all your life and saved up all that money so that you both can travel and do all the things you had to put on hold while raising your kids, suddenly being left all alone to do those things isn’t really quite the same….
It’s not often you find that one companion who gets along with you so well and care about you so much. The bed remains too empty for you alone. So get more pillows!!!! Hehe
Someday, not too far from now, I hope I don’t have to go to bed alone anymore. I think I can safely dream about those days now.
my crazy semester is almost done....
thanks to my teammates. to be honest this semester they helped me out alot.
i guess next semester i really need to buck up and get dirty with them.
im just so tired. my last holiday was.....december. perhaps the xoming 8weeks holiday will renew my will to complete this degree and chuck it to hell.
ive met amazing lecturers and ive met amazing lecturers. lecturers who i dont know how they even managed to become lecturers.
im too exhausted to be lecturer bashing lolz.
this post is dedicated to those who helped me thru the last 3weeks. man,it felt like 2months.
you guys are the greatest!!!!!
at this moment, 23 years ago, a lil baby boy is being born...all covered in plasenta and expanding his tiny lungs with high pitch screams like he still sometimes does whenever i tickle him hehe.
right at this moment 23 years ago, unknown to the yet to be born me, was born a lil guy... can say the gguy of my dreams lo..... is being wrapped up in a lovely blue bundle somewhere in a tiny island called Penang. he is meeting his mother for the first time. his daddy just got his first legacy, his pride and love.
23 years later, i took him out on the eve of the night where we had a wonderful dinner and watched a gore movie where people who consumed alien spaceship oil turns into an alien, where nail, skin and teeth shed like dog shed fleas. a midnight blueberry cake and he is officially 23.
23 years later i celebrated his birthday with a nice meal at home not cooked by me (of course) but by our fave nyonya restaurant and watch people get Pranked!
15minutes of a musical classic love story "My Fair Lady" is enough to put Mr Energized into a slumber. sigh....still a baby....
What did i get this adorable man for his 23rd birthday?you will have to ask him. as broke as i am, imk surprised i managed to get him anyrhing.
sometimes, the best date is the simplest date
happy birthday darling!!!
yay!!!! cant believed its been so long! the day started crappier than usual.... but it picked up after my darling had a good rest and was able to pamper me. and pamper me he did
heavy rainstorm today....its a sign from god that we should all stay in and SNUGGLE!! its always a sign from god....but i got hungry and went to grab a bite to munch on...
ive been deprived of the internet for 5 days. FIVE days! thats like 100years of a teenagers life. finally wasted 45minutes lodging a complain....and well...it healed itself lol. after the thunderstorm. amazing =)
For 2months,nearly 3 months i had no aircond in my car. NO aircond! for those not living in Malacca, this "hell on earth" weather is the worst place you can be without an aircond in the car that has ovens as seats.
so on monday,i said enough is enough!
although i was broke at that time(first month of the sem i never know where my money goes wan),i drove all over town looking for an aircond shop. the past 2 months ive been scouting for aircond shops near my home so that when i wanted to do my car,i would know where. the first shop's aircond mechanic was off for the day. the second shop turned out to be a real aircond shop (the kind you put in your house,not your car) and the third shop quoted me rm220 (it was righttttt behind my house but i went all over town before reaching this one).he said he needed 2 days.i decided to let him do it but said i would comeback the next day. on the way home i saw another shop.what the heck,i went to ask.the guy quoted me rm160.i gave him my car keys hehe. it was all in mandarin so i was a bit lost in translation.he told me 2hours was all he needed. i haerd 2days haha.so i was stuck at home without a car for 2 days hehe. oh well.....lesson learned.(the first guy meant 2hours too lol)
when i picked up my car yesterday,it was c-c-c-c-cold!!!! haha
havent felt my car that cold since........this could take awhile
anyway,happy to say that this is the best rm160 ive ever spent! now i wont have to roast in my car anymore =)
my baby needs more tuning up but it can wait a lil longer.wana enjoy my newfound haven first
today is Sunday. a nice day to stay in bed. i stayed there til 11am hehe. i was in a good mood,a bit hungry but have to content to a granola bar cos all breakfast is over already.....
came online planning to just check my mail.....but then...someone passed me this link.
http://advocateviews.blogspot.com/2009/07/replace-macc-with-truly-independent-one.html
it pisses me off. it makes me want to pick up a knife and stab all those in the video. it makes me want to do things to them. evil things. it makes me want to make them feel like the poor guy they are beating up. the site says this is a demonstration of how a MACC interrogation session looks like.
i want all of you to take a look. look at how they let these animals treat a human being. how they sleep at night is amazing.
how the people in charge allow this to happen is astounding. the nerve this people have to video tape the brutality! why have to record it? so you can rewatch your time of glory? you get off at watching a grown man cower is it? you feel proud to be able to kick a man in the face and not have him fight back? you feel powerful watching you and your goons overpowering a thin helpless man? to use a whip! he is not a donkey!
these abusers should be tied up and made to watch as their loved ones be treated like this by that man's loved ones. but that's just me
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today is JCard day. for those who dont know,its is the day Jaya Jusco makes the most sales in the year. every year,Jaya Jucso(JJ) will have something called JCard day. all JCard holders will get to buy things at a cheaper price. supposedly cheaper that ANYONE there is. people would throng the place from 730am until 11pm when JJ closes for the day. this promotion, sort of a "give back to the customer day" will be on going for about 3 days. what most malaysians dont realize is that, its a SCAM!
Sure,some things are sold cheap like a carton of Guiness is sold at RM130. i saw a guy who had a whole cart of just Guiness. my friend could buy at rm85 per carton whenever he wanted tho haha.6-pack Dutch Lady Chocolate milk is worth rm6 something. that is CHEAP because JJ usually sells them at rm8.60. Mydin sells all Dutch Lady 6-pack at 6.30 daily. not just the unwanted chocolate milk. the Peel Fresh 1.8Lx2 is worth 12.69. thats cheap! but JJ has that on-going everyday.not just today.
you wouldnt believe some of the amazing things i saw today. i saw a family push TWO carts full of Darlie. seriously full. like if u add another Darlie, it would fall off. both was above the cart already.
i saw many filled half their carts with the 2kg milo. it was a limited 2 pack per person i think it was cheap.i saw people loading up on dishwasher, clothes detergent like nobody's business. i saw a cart full of Julie's crackers (the very dry, very original, very tasteless). i saw many funny things. many many funny things.
JJ was suppose to open at 8am. we got there at 830am. people were already there. the whole malacca was there!
carparks were full, the roadside was full... on the way home we saw the police writing saman to all the cars..haha... imagine this: i spent more time in the queuing than to pick my things out. i swear they hire zombies to work at that place. everyone had a cartload full at minimum and 2 carts is the average and they provided a space as big as an A4 folder for you to put you things,let the cashier scan it and pack it in the plastic bag. she alone had to work and in that tiny workspace.oh there was a helper with her. a newbie. whose only job was to hold the bag open.he cant even be bothered to take the things that the cashier has scanned and place them in the plastic bag.i wanted to help move things but they would not let me. it didn't help that the cashier moved...SO SLOW i could have fucked, got pregnant,went through my 9 months and gave birth to a healthy baby before it was my turn. i have never been in a queue for such a long time!
and after all that hassle, you walk out and find out that all that you have saved in $$ is all down the drain. why? cos the police charged you rm30 for your parking convenience where else those who jam in JJ carpark parked for free.
so i ask you again, aren't malaysians a joke sometimes? we even go home feeling happy about it
i was back in Penang for the weekend. it was the BEST ever!!!
i didnt want to leave.i truly did not.
friday was hectic. i skipped morning class to laze about at home. then i packed and head down to kl with howard.our transit bus was apart by 30 minutes and we had to take a cab from pudu to the old KTM station. met up with jing zi. usually i would sleep but i ended up talking to her all the way.arrived in heaven by 8pm.
the traffic jam on the bridge was so bad i only saw my parents at 845. then we went to pick my bro from tuition (remember how we used to tuition until 11pm) then reached home at 11pm. watched Speed til 1am and then sleep on my own bed til noon. ahh...life.
heehee
went out to do some chores.along the way we had pancake(from new cathay) and awesome hokkien mee! I didnt realize that the shop also had Loh mee but howard did and he was lucky cos he was craving loh mee and that shop had awesome loh mee.
after more chores,we went to visit my grandma. she didnt know that im back so it was a pleasant surprise.instinct told her to go buy and fry cempedak the day before so i got to eat my grandma's famous cempedak. its been ages since i had any!!!!
ate alot of it too
durian season is almost over for the year. last year i totally missed out. so this year i was cutting it close.my dad went to try his luck and he managed to get 6!!!
SIX of awesome durian! they all had funny names and rich flavour. i enjoyed it. altho is was just 6 small ones, the 5 of us could barely finished it. its always good to have durian as dinner hehe
howards never had durian with special names on it so..it was his first experience.
after dinner we all sat down and watched downloads. until it was 11pm. earlier i bought 11.45pm tickets to Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. it was good. so good it made me take the final installation of the series and i am going to reread it.
got home at 330am. positively exhausted and couldnt be happier.
on my final day i woke up at 9am. met wee nee mei lin and jing zi for breakfast. i went to my fave chee cheong fun and char koay kak but it was a busy sunday. so all food sucked. >.<
nevermind cos i then met up with my parents at noon and had tim sum at Northern Hotel. Whee!!!!
the food was awesome as usual.
i then went to cut my hair. my hairstylist runaway already...i hate it when they jump ship. the new guy cut my hair instead and it was cheap.and not bad. shorter than what i would have wanted but...now its so easy to wash my nair and comb it. so me likey!
went home to laze about til it was time for.... TAO!!
my dad managed to find my fave hor lor durian to stuff me again before dinner haha. heavenly....is all i can think of to describe hor lor.
tao was magnificent. superb. delectable. i havent had it in awhile already.it was so good. especially the lamb. the marinated lamb. we had 3.haha.
after dinner,i boarded the bus that was going to take me away from my home. slept all the way. penang is truly the best getaway
PS:my bro joined the state level drama about the bad effects of technology on the environment in Penang. he won 3rd place!!! first was Hamid Khan and 2nd was Dato Kramat. unbelieveable
i just wasted 4 hours of my life listening to 2 lecturers who couldnt lecture to save their life. Honestly!
i waste 12hours of my life every week to sit and listen to these incompetent preachers who knows that we are not listening either. and it has become such a norm to get incompetent fools that we all accept them as they are and just waste our time, effort, attention and resources,just like that.
i can remember my Form2 and Form 3 Geography teacher who was awesome. this blog is a tribute to her. She had a voice of an angel, wits of a magician and the humour of a teenager.she was sporting, affectionate and cared for us. she went past the classroom to teach us things like culture, general knowledge, moral. i remember when we would look forward to after the final semester exams where we are allowed to be hooligans and run wild and free all over the school. the teachers would not even come in to class. but she, she would come in. she actually thought of ways to educate us beyond her scope. because why? because she is a teacher.her job is to impart wisdom and knowledge. so how do you get a class of 35 to sit down and listen to you preach with open ears and open minds and learn something new when we are actually free to be hooligans??
she saw me borrow a Chicken Soup for the Souls book, took it from my table and started to read to all of us. it was like i was home with my mum and she was reading me a bedtime story. she then explain what the story was about.
she started doing that everytime she came in. and soon, the other classes were requesting that she did the same for them. can u imagine an entire class actually asked to be educated??? when we could be playing UNO and what have you?
her voice was soft but loud and clear. her remarks sharp but kind. she was strict and a perfectionist. you know just from a conversation with her that you do NOT want to mess with her.
it was thanks to her i developed an interest in Geography,something i deemed as Snoozefest before she taught me.
THAT'S the kind of quality educators we need teaching in universities. not some fool who has a PhD and thinks he can teach already. not all who knows can teach. it takes a special set of skills to teach. i ask for an elaboration on one of the terms on his OWN slide and he turns around and says "i have no answer for you"
....
useless,wouldn't you say?
to think that these losers claim 4k off our pockets as a fee to impart rubbish is absurd, to say the very least.
the good lecturers, those who has the intellect and skill to teach, are often sent for further studies, research, administrative works. because they are capable, they are given the task to manage and lead the university.
i ask you, which is more important, the student's education or the number of research and functions the university can boast about?
i think they seriously got their priorities messed up
then they turn around and expect you to already know your shit.
in uni everything is basically self study. but if that's the case, why hire lecturers?
just hire researchers will do la. i am sure they cost less. then the university can spend more on facilities like proper bus schedules, proper bustops, proper cafeteria food.
btw, the awesome geography teacher is no other than Pn.Ooi Poh Choo. god bless ya
Ahh...it's sunday today and i am so relaxed.....
i was going back and forth the whole week,trying to decide if i should travel to see a friendly face. going home....going to kl......but i ended up staying at home. i lazed all day yesterday....on the bed...literally....catching up on my series.... i watched nip/tuck, finished grey's anatomy, house,dollhouse......it was awesome!!! i got a new couple tee too!
oh i was feeling tortured because i was missing home and i thought that seeing a friendly face was the only way to cure it. im a creature of habit.
staying home and watching series was an old fave habit of mine. doing just that was homey enough to keep me sane til i reach penang.
you should watch easy virtue too. quite funny. and i didnt know jessica beil was so HOT!!!!
she sizzles.....=D
Since life is pretty slowpace now before the madness begins, i found a new addiction.
Mahjong!!! Now i know how people can stay up all day and all night just playing them!
Gosh it's like, when you are playing mahjong, you have to be SO alert and SO sharp!
it really test your minds sharpness and intelligence. you could be the first to have a perfect set and you are just waiting for that one character while the others are still fumbling but you may just lose because you waited for something someone else was waiting. You also have to be SO careful of what you throw because each character that you throw that benefits others, you have to pay. haha
with limited chips, the game gets tough and fast paced. DAMN its a good game!
when i finally return home, i am going to teach and infect ALL of you back in Penang!!
keeps the mind sharp and the wits alert ^^
last night i played til 6am before howard called it quits. i felt so alive and awake i could've played all night!! hehe
shh...dun tell my mum
okay...since university started i havent had the time to blog.or even go online. so many things on my mind.
for one thing, just reading my subject planner already i feel dizzy.... sigh. so damn tough. another is PPSMI. that sucks. i knew they were going to reverse the thing. abolish it. stupid government. fools. the country will pay.aih my poor...beloved country.....
Infosys is over. damn i miss the life. i really do. i miss all the people in it too.... i was so excited to start learning and start my semester already. but all my lecturers are not. so now i have.... nothing to do.... aih.... my entire house went home this weekend....i wish i could too..... oh well....
I MISS YOU ALL!!! ALL OF YOU!!!!!!
That's it. Here it is. People, i am done! Infosys, over. i want to be able to say that i am glad, that i am happy, that i am relieved. Actually, im.....
Last night all of us stayed up way past our bedtime because we didn't really wanted the night to end. We played mahjong from morning until night hehe. took my friends from Sarawak to go see UTeM main campus. Sigh. i am going to miss them all. Really. Given a chance to do over,i would not do it again. Neither would Perly haha but we made a few friends i would not forget.
at infosys i had a Mummy hehe. we all did.
*Mummy and I*
Mummy's real name is Ping Ping but she is known to us all as Mummy!!!!!! simply because she is the oldest among all the trainees and she calls us her children. she self proclaim as the mummy of the infosys herd (hehe) so we all eventually took her as our big sister.sort of. im already missing her. she had to leave early so she missed out on the photo sessions but i managed to steal a picture with her before she left.
right now i feel so weird because i am not heading back to King's Hotel to stay tonight. I feel weird not having a deadline to meet. the closing ceremony was grand.
it was held at Equitorial Hotel Malacca. We had Chinese food. 7 course meal! it wasnt... really Chinese food.it was a Malay equivalence of Chinese food. the Seafood soup tasted like sharkfin soup with prawn instead of shark fin, the roasted chicken tasted like roasted pork but with chicken instead of pork and etc. you get the idea haha. after the eating we had photo sessions. we all plan to pass them along via Facebook so theres no need for me to re-post them
after long winded goodbyes and promises of Simpan Dalam Sentuh, we parted.
i cameback and started to move into my new home. Starting my 3rd and final year on Monday and i have officially moved out!!
so tired......really tired.
the only consolation i have is that i get to have 2 FULL days with my beloved darling before madness starts ALL over again! gonna appreciate it ^^
my darling helped me move things in and out of the car, moped and fixed up my bed, mattress, cupboard, helped me do 80% of the work!~ gonna reward him later ^^
thats all guys! for now.tired
Infosys was a great experience. all those that i have met there are truly the top 100 computer science undergrads in the country. it was an honour to have met you all and have had the opportunity to work with you all before you guys become hotshots haha
adios amigos!!
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I keep saying that I miss home. People always ask me “What do I miss about home?”
That got me thinking. What is it really that I miss?
I’m going to make a list now. As you can see, I am too free lol
I miss my mummy. She used to fuss over me whenever I go home after being away for a long while. Me and tricia wouldn’t protest because secretly we like to be pampered and hugged by our mummies ^^
I miss my daddy. Not his temper but that seems that the infamous temper has left the Kam household, leaving a very pleasant oldman behind. Why does it always take age to soften something hard and stubborn eh? XD
I miss my brother. I cant say little brother because he is 1.5 times my height now. He is taller and he is bigger. Very much mature for his age but will revert back to the 12 year old that he was whenever he and I wish to take a trip down memory lane…. Except that now I no longer hug him into my arms. He hugs me into his. I feel so protected
I miss my lovely one-of-a-kind TRICIA!!! My gym buddy! My shopping and hangout kaki. My American Idol buddy. My gossip source. My movie kaki. My music updater (she discovers new songs and I download them for both of us). My er fashion sense (I have none so she will update me on the latest trends and explain what they are). My crazy quirky funny loveable Tricia! There’s no one like her. Gosh I miss her sooo much! Cos shes my only best friend I haven’t seen for the longest time. Even though both our lives are so crazy and I miss her so much, she is also the best friend I keep in touch with the most. I message her the most (after howard). When I see you tri, you better stand still so I can have my fill of hug of you!
I miss Wee Nee. Currently doing her internship. She should have come for Infosys. I didn’t know that it could be counted as an internship too. Wasted opportunity. Shes the toughest girl I know. So determined. So resilient. She never gives up. Soldiers on no matter what. Against all odds. I miss her. Roti canai is not the same without her
Mei lin keeps creeping up my mind too haha. The only other super tall person in my life besides my brother. But I don’t feel that you are towering over me. I feel that we are on equal grounds (my ego made up for the loss of height I suppose haha) we can go on and on and on for hours, can’t we? I saw her most the last few times I went back so I don’t miss her as much but quite often she will creep into my mind and pounce on me! Haha. WHEN YOU COMING OVER?????
Ahh…. Jing Zi. Havent kept in touch with her since august last year. Gosh has it really been a year?? Geez. Everytime when July semester is about to start, I will start to think of her already because that is when she is coming back. 2 (or was it 3?more?) years already at Newcastle and she still has not adopted any western culture. Good for you! Haha. Love people who has a firm ground on who they are (you too mei lin)
Mich…mich…. Always wanting to steal my brother for her ownself haha. Currently back in KL already. I miss the good old days where I would go to work then after work I would go wake miss princess and we would go for lunch then just hangout. Life was simple back then. In many ways she was my substitute for a boyfriend, company-wise la. She was there for me, had fun with me, talked about anything from the sun to the stars to the moon. Haha I even gave her my first diary. That was how close we were
Gosh I think this list is getting too long yet I haven’t even scratched the surface of what I miss! Haha no wonder I’m so homesick! I miss the food, I miss the sea, I miss DURIAN!!!! I miss the hectic Penangite life. I even miss the GSC we have there! I miss my bed and the 32 inch Television! I miss…I miss…..i…i…. *explodes with miss*
My dad always tell me that there are 3 types of people. Those who sit and complain that great things don’t happen to them. Those who watch great things happen to others. Those who make great things happen. It’s not hard to sort people out into these categories.
I hate chronic complainers. Hate them. Annoying little brats is what they are. Stubborn, spoiled, annoying and thick-skinned. Seems to be I always meet these sorry losers. No no, I won’t name any of them. The strangest thing about these people is that they don’t realize it. All the unpleasant people don’t realize how unpleasant they are. The funniest thing is instead of knowing that they are unpleasant and that they should change their ways if want to have friends, they think that they are the world’s most popular people and that they have no flaws. Maybe that’s why I find them so annoying.
People are strange creatures, don’t you think so? We are the only creatures who after getting injured, comeback for more. Time and time again after crashing from a heartbreak, we are back for more. After falling off a horse, we climb back up it again. After totaling a car, we buy a new one and drive again. As if we are asking for more pain in our life. Strange isn’t it?
I always had this theory hehe. Christians and Muslims are not going to be happy reading this. I always wondered to myself why we have so many idiots running around. Its like, for every intelligent mortal (as nature intended) there are 10 morons running around. Yup, that ratio is about right. Then one day I came to my own conclusion to my question. The reason incest is taboo/forbidden is because when 2 DNA that is that similar mixed together, they will cause genetic mutation. Why I don’t know. In my head logically I think if u take a pair of identical twins and mate their DNA, you would be cloning them. Anyway, for some reason, close DNA will give you retarded kids. Dating back to Adam and Eve, Eve was supposedly made from Adam’s ribs. Means she is part of him. They share the same DNA. Then they mated. Based on probabilities, their offspring is like a cross between cloning and incest. If incestual babies are retards, then the human race after Adam and Eve are therefore, retards. Then I don’t know how (because I am neither Christian or Muslim) the human population grew with Adam and Eve’s family as the first human family. How? They needed to breed among each other. Means…. Having sex within the family. More retards. So….. are we a product of retards? The probability of having a retard or mentally disable child nowadays with 2 similar DNAs is high but not 100%. Maybe that’s why we have geniuses, the commoners and the dimwits. Perhaps when the human race was born, we were meant to be geniuses. Our brains are made that way. Look at the human body defense system! We were tasked to care after mothernature and all her offsprings. Look at what we have done. Look at the state of Earth. If mothernature truly exist, she is going to be one hell of a bitch when she discovers the condition of Earth. I have this feeling that I will live to see Earth get destroyed. Not by aliens. Not by some end of the world notion. I believe Earth will perish on the hands of humans. Some idiot will accidently set off a nuclear bomb, which will prompt all the big guns to show whose nuclear bomb can create the biggest crater in the world. We will eat all the fishes in the sea til they are all extinct. Those which survived will be poisoned by our human waste and stupidity and our lazy garbage disposal methods. Our ”advance” technology to manipulate the poultry to make them grow fat and large and fast will create billions of new deadly virus and super bacteria that will in turn, kill humans (H1N1). AIDS is doing a fine job, killing people left and right slowly and painfully because of a man who couldn’t keep his dick in his pants, away from monkey and his human wife. I can go on and on and on but even I am losing my appetite for this entry.
Growing up makes you aware. Growing up makes you mature. I just finished reading The Golden Compass. It is a good read. Talks about original sin and growing up. About being naïve and innocent. Original sin is when Adam and Eve first defied God and bit the apple. Up until 5 minutes ago I didn’t understand what original sin was. Now I know. God intended us to be innocent and happy as children are happy. Did anyone watch Dollhouse? It’s a series on TV about how there is an organization who has a bunch of hot looking guys and girls that had their memory wiped out and now has a mentality of a child until someone hires them. Then they will be programmed to be the best in whatever the client needs them to be. Hunter, date, negotiator, you name it, you got it. I look at them and I don’t call that happiness. To be innocent and ignorance of the worlds evil. To be denied the mistakes I made which I learn valuable lessons from. To be… emotionless. Unable to think for myself. I don’t call that life. I don’t call that happiness. I’m happy that Adam and Eve made that mistake. They were curious and rebellious. That is human nature. You can’t get any more human than that. It was a lost cause from the beginning. If God wanted Adam and Eve as pets who lived happily at the Garden with the mentality of children, he should not have given them a brain, curiosity and rebellion instinct. Oh well. Guess even God can’t always get what he wants.
People always want what they can’t have. We are constantly working for something. We just can’t sit still as a race, can we? Haha. The man who has everything, will always say he is looking for something because he is bored thus he is looking for entertainment. If I were king and I had everything I needed, I wonder if I would be bored. Probably. Maybe that’s why rulers are usually so mean and cruel. They always have this dark side to them. It is because they are so bored they are willing to try anything that gives them some distraction and pleasure, even if it is for awhile. Since they have money and influence, what is stopping them?
We are deplorable as a race, aren’t we?
Yesterday was day 1 of the new intake. My gawd there were SO many!!! Mostly Malays which means the number of Chinese intake in local universities have dropped. I wonder why. Is it because the government did not give or are we turning them down?
This year the newbies are registering at the main campus. We are finally moving in!!! im kind of proud of my main campus. Its HUGE! Hehe. Land in Malacca is cheap.
Sigh. Today is Monday already. In 6 days I will be going to university as a 3rd year now. Sigh. I feel so old. The newbies look so young! I miss home a lot. Been thinking of skipping the first few days so that I can perhaps nick a short 3 days at Penang. But I need to clean out my new room out. I HAVE MY OWN ROOM!!! FINALLY!!!
Hehe those who want to come visit me now have a place to stay already hehe!!!
I bought a bed that is foldable. Very cool. Found 2 mattress for rm30. Its now on howards bed. So for the time being his bed is made up of THREE mattress!!! Ahahahahahaha damn comfy la. When I lie down on it, it feels like…like….nothing. im sleeping on air. Such comforts.
My time at King’s Hotel is now coming to an end. Honestly, I have never regretted anything in my life. Until now. I regret joining this course. Somehow I feel that the end does not justify the means. There are so many things I wanted to do. So much more that I wanted to experience. All I got to show for it is a fat belly from 8weeks of eating greasy malay food 3 times a day and 2 fails to show for it. Sigh. My major is so obscure that nothing I learn here, I think, can be applied on my major. I think I will have a hard time fitting into the real world.
Speaking of the real world, I now remember what was the purpose of this blog already. I think all of us were very happy when we heard that English was to be the medium for Science and Maths. In fact, I was envious. Now there is talk of changing it back to Malay. =.=
Not only the government is backing this idea but also the opposition. Wth. We are suppose to be moving FORWARD, not backward! Everyday I read about various politicians who would give their views about how Bahasa Malaysia is being threatened by the usage of English in this two subjects. Hello… we are taking 10 subjects for SPM. 3 out of 10 subjects are hardly threatening. If the Malaysian will to keep their heritage and culture is so weak, then which language we use to learn is hardly the main issue. The problem with these politicians is that they are not the students. They don’t know how it is like to learn everything in Malay only to have to relearn everything again in English. It didn’t matter how much knowledge we acquire in Science and Maths because at an international level, we know nothing. Because it is ALL in English! How do you expect us to compete in an international level?? Or hold discussions with international scholars when we are not even using the same terms and language? This is a step backwards. The government is going about this the wrong way. Why bother to ask the politicians when it does not concern them? Its like asking a trishaw peddler what is the best way to treat cancer. Sure, he can give you his views but he has to credentials to give them. Why would he? It has nothing to do with him! If the government truly wants what is best for the country’s future, they should be conducting a nationwide survey comprising ONLY the students! If at university level is conducted fully in English, what logic does it make to start the student’s foundation in Bahasa Melayu?
The government policy changes based on politician’s whim and fancy. The nation’s future leaders are paying the heavy price. How is the country suppose to grow? We as students have been very patient with the government. We are forced to carry heavy books to school, made to endure a full day school, study subjects which is not of our interest but are forced to score nevertheless. Let me ask these bright politicians, how many times in your life have you applied everything you learned in school? Look at the Americans. They are able to choose their subjects much earlier and more freedom than we do. It enables them to pursue their interest at an earlier age, giving them a headstart. They need not waste their time with subjects such as Moral. Moral values such as integrity and respect cannot be learned in a classroom from a thick, boring textbook by memorizing definitions. Singapore adopts a much longer school hours per day than Malaysians. I don’t know what they teach in class but when I talk to my cousin, he is far more knowledgeable than the Malaysian’s his age. He knows about world history. He knows about world geography. He knows more general knowledge than I do and I am 7 years older than he is. So did Singapore got it right? While our leaders are using us all as guinea pigs to justify their political agendas, the world is passing Malaysians by. My batch was the guinea pig batch. We were the first to take EST(which was compulsory for my school and is now abolished =.=) we were the first to take Science and Maths in English at Form4 and Form 5. I can tell you we were not happy about the switch. It was for the better because English is the language of Science but the transition period was hard. Science has many many scientific terms and while we studied it in Malay, it was another term. Giving that same fate to future students is not a bright idea.
When all is said and done, most of the time I can see that the Malaysian politicians can’t see or think further than 3 feet in front of them. Maybe they should play more chess and less politicking. The future of our country is getting bleaker and bleaker by the minute. Elections are determined by the young voters. I myself am a young voter and we want change. We don’t want has-beens ruling this country. We don’t want dramas and fake promises. We want brilliance. We want foresight. We want someone worthy of being a leader. We are in fact, losing out to our fellow neighbours like Philippines. Soon oil will run out. Soon we will be just like any other countries who don’t have any advantages. Soon we will all become a third world country like Africa. At least they are not delusional
Darling, i am fickle minded. i talk of leaving. i talk of independence. i talk of separation. i crap at length about how i demand more and you can never fulfill them.
when you hold me in a full embrace and my head is at that special crook of your arm that seems somehow designed for my head size, i forget everything. my place is there.
forget whatever i have ever said. it all boils down to nothing the minute you hold me in your arms the way you do and tell me with those sincere eyes how much you miss me. nothing you can say that will speak more of how much you love me than those brown (or isit black?) eyes. guess your are stuck with me. cos im never leaving
NEVER
Today suck. its my anniversary and i picked a fight over the silliest thing. i failed my last test. have to retake the whole 5 bloody hours. Michael Jackson died. he was the one who got me through the last 7weeks.
i hate myself. i hate today
WOW. 22months! darling its been awhile eh? hehe
kinda feels long tho. feels like a lifetime ago when you asked me to be yours. to many people 22months is nothing in a relationship but i feel like everyday is something and we cant take it for granted. that is why i insist on making the 26th of every month a special day. its to remind me never to take you for granted.
Absence makes the heart grow fonder. TRUE.
Right now you are faraway in some jungle doing something i would love doing. while i am here stuck in Malacca with the night off,thinking about you in my room. Since we were unable to chat as usual thanks to your lovely trainers, ill just tell you whats on my mind here
Woke up late. Skipped breakfast. lunch was lousy. i ate fruits and 2 peice of kuih only. yes it was that lousy. had a headache all day. my partner kept coughing and was having flu and fever. i panicked myself thinking it was H1N1. had a mild fever too after my nap.but it went away. so i scared myself shitless for nothing haha.
today was very boring. i finished what i could do already so i just gamed the whole day. after 5 hours, the zombies look...boring. i actually begged for work to do lol. INFOSYS HAS TURNED ME INTO A WORKAHOLIC!!!!! i need help.... =\
Called wee nee....who helped me cure my boredom (girlfriends are the best!!)
everytime i call her she would ask when im coming home...(she sounds like my boyfriend lol) and i will tell her i dont have a holiday....everytime i will hear the disappointment and i will ask myself wth i am doing here. SIGH
we miss our roti canai days.
i met a wonderful friend here. she is sooo chatty and upbeat you cant be sad around her haha. but she left on tuesday and wont be coming back until at least sunday so i am without my morning sunshine in this gloomy place til then. GOOD LUCK PING!!!!
(shes going for her VIVA. to get her masters finally)
it doesnt matter how much your other half means to you, at the end of the day, girlfriends are the one which you count on. the one you depend on. it doesnt matter that they are not family. together with them and your actual family you form your line of support.
~No man is an island~
Since my last post i have had....2 test. haha. they suck. i may have to retake. it sucks.
after the test tho they announced that they were giving us the day off!! whee!!! for once we were given a free day and theres no pending work. so after i sent my friend off to the bus terminal, guess what i did??
Kam Hui Ming is officially LOVING karaoke!!! hahaha
betcha yall who knows me didnt see that coming
so tired nwow..going to bed early for once....
sweet dreams everyone
Sigh....ive been off the face of the virtual world for 5weeks already.can u imagine that??!!!! FIVE WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Isit worth it? i dont know.... everyday my lovely tricia will remind me of what she is doing that day for fun.without me =.=''
i love my friend dearly but...but......im going to kill her when i see her!!!! then i will hug her =)
things have been so mad i dont know what day is when already. time and space have been lost to me. i just know i wake up before 7, breakfast at 7 then go up to the lab to stare at codings until its time to eat.then back to the freezing hell(21'C mind you) until 5pm.then rest til after dinner. at 8pm i would go back and OT until about 2am.that is early. then i do it all over again. life is so routine i get lost. even when it is sunday i still have the same routine.it doesnt matter what day it is.
They serve us crappy food. and i mean CRAPPY FOOD!
crappy food is just something i have to live with for as long as i am studying at malacca.if i were to hold penang standard here im afraid i would die of starvation. we are staying at a 3star hotel.not only thy are serving crappy food, it is also food that is near or has just passed the expiry date. ever heard of sour honeydew? we get them daily. many of us ran to the toilet daily. i am quite fortunate. i only run to the toilet every other day.
sigh. all that ive grown immune to it already. food and the stress i think has become the second nature to us university students. we are no longer affected by it. sleep is a luxury.yes we bitch about it. yes we complain and make a ruckus. but we are used to it. what we are not used to is missing our loved ones. today is fathers day.to my daddy it is just another daay.if i were home it would be just another sunday at home relaxing too.but since im not home,i miss him even more. i miss everyone at home. the other day wee nee called me to chat. it made me so happy to hear a familiar voice. sure being here day with the same faces makes them familiar too...but somehow it is different. there is that special bond but im missing my old life. my friends...my family....the activities we used to do.... i miss my life. i miss life. i miss penang. i used to wait for the long holidays to have my fill but this time there is no such fate. i go straight back to university after this course ends.
dont get me wrong. somehow,we managed to have fun among the stress and pressure. chang told us we will have to work hard like we have never worked hard before but we will also have the best time of our lives.at the same time. i didnt believe him. but it is true.
ok being cut off from the virtual world also means im back to being 'katak di bawah tempurung' since my source of news is online. i had to resort to........the mainstream media =.=' which is basically no news. in all the worlds turmoil and issues, i saw one day the headline for berita harian was.... ibu dan anak bertemu semula selepas 17 tahun. and then the building which collapse and killed the destruction workers was on page 2. or was it 4? my point is, the mainstream media is bullshit. i dont know why i still read because everyday i spend 30minutes reading the paper(because i read in detail, not just headlines) and i go away with nothing. nothing important is in the pages. the things i get are like, man murders wife on honeymoon trip. the kill bill actor dies from a sex act(came out 3 times in the papers.really, no other new??? ANY news????)
the government is always ranting about the evil of blogs and that is all rubbish an lies. hello,we are not naive. there are intelligent citizens in Malaysia. if you dont give us news, we search elsewhere la. i stopped buying the mainstream media newspapers because they contain ZERO information!!! naive and innocent people dont read the news. so you will have to do better if you want to at LEAST attempt to change our minds.
the more i read, the more i wish we adopted the China's method to corruption. line them up, and the open fire. but that is just a dream. in reality we arent cruel like that. we are cruel in more.... behind the curtains way.
thats all for now. gotta head back to the codings. miss you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, yesterday was boring. So i have nothing to write about...much. I'm in class now. Very sleepy, very tired. You guys should check out taylor swift's Love Story meets Coldplay's Viva la Vida. Very very nice.
So good... good music has been missing out lately haven't it? All the new songs i hear are all.... maybe i am just getting old. Maybe i now belong to the old generation and now has to resort to radio stations like Light and Easy. its just that nowadays music released as hit songs are either about the dark side of life, or love songs. Hip hop and rap are hopeless because all they do is trash their mothers and sabotage my vocabulary. Pop is not what it used to be already. it used to be fun, young, light. Now its all i love you, you dont love me, we are over, im so heartbroken....etc. it gets BORING. people, come on la. cant you songwriters do better???!!!
most of you probably dont know who John Denver is but you should check out his music if you want songs filled with meaning and peace. He is a country singer. i hate country but i find that if genre has materials other than love and the screw ups of lives of the common people, then the country genre has a shot. they sing about the nature, about world problems, about the difference we can make, about the simple things in life. of course there are sappy lovesick cowboys like er... Garth? there is another sappy cowboy but i cant remember his name but my brother is crazy about him. lovesick cowboy just sounds wrong to me. doesnt it to u ? i associate cowboy with macho, strength, masculine......not lovesick.
Alternative rock or whatever Avril lavigne is classified as is also a breath of fresh air. in fact, all music that breaks away from this love song trend is a breath of fresh air.
Okay…. I am going to try to keep an account of this interesting course. I will attempt to write a blog a day. Today is day 1. Let me start the entry with breakfast! It wasn’t awesome but it had everything I wanted. Honeystars!! with milk, toast bread with egg or kaya , nasi lemak that smells so good I caught a whiff of it and I was sold, orange juice and all the fruits I want!!
After the hearty meal, we were shipped off to the city campus. We were divided into 4 groups. There were many confusions and whatnots so I was thrown here and there for about an hour haha. I ended up with Perly (whee!) but we were further separated into 5 small work groups. Although we were in different group, it was still great because we share same break time and etc. our speaker will be in charge of us for the next 7 days. Today was very interesting because this first week is all about soft skills. All 4 groups are given a different speaker so we all actually learn different things. Some just did introduction and ice breaking from 10-5 today, some did games, and I, my special group, had homework. My very first group assignment!!!! Lolz don’t be fooled by the enthusiasm. Its fake hehe.
Nevertheless, we had a great time today. Today’s module was Logical Thinking so he basically gave us various contradicting titles and make us discuss then pitch our points. It felt like debating, which I now realize, I miss a lot. So it was a very fun day for me. I picked a very testy topic to defend a friend and I think I made half the class hate me but it doesn’t bother me. Yet. Haha. Im just here to have fun and learn. I have made a few new friends. Too few for my taste but I have always been a slow one at making new friends. I like to take my time. I think a lot of people view my err coolness against all strangers as arrogance, but it is how I am. I can’t just warm up to you without first evaluating your personality. So if anyone thought I was arrogant, your loss.
We kept eating though. 8am, 1pm, 3pm, 7pm….. gawd im fat already. Give me a chance! The foods good but the lunch wasn’t that great. So from now on, I am going to have a hearty breakfast, skip lunch and have a good tea. The tea is great! Would be better if I was hungry to appreciate it.
I miss my family though. Miss my home. Miss my friends. And most of all, I miss my ability to company my darling throughout the day. I wasn’t able to and he was left to fend for himself most of my time. When I was finally free, it was already 11pm and he was all tucked in bed already.
I will make it up to u. Pwomise
Click Here to Read More..Okay people, I am back in Malacca. Normally I will miss home terribly but I will at least have my darling to take my mind off things…. He helps. Sometimes. Sometimes moping is all I feel like doing. This trip however, is extra tough. I ( foolishly) went for an interview for a course called Infosys. Those of you who are close to me have heard me complain more than my share of whiney already but I want to widen my whiney scope – Internet.
Let me explain what Infosys is. Infosys is an outsourcing company located in India. It is an international company that is responsible for the loss of jobs/ lack of jobs of computer science grads here because all major companies are now closing their IT branch and outsourcing to India. (ish) Back in 1981, 7 guys with $200 decided to start a company. 28 years later, Infosys declared a $4.1 billion in revenue! Awesome
Anyway, 2 years ago Infosys decided to start a program called Infosys. It will pick a day where ICT students all over Malaysia will simultaneously take a half day interview, starting with essay writing, an IQ test and finally a group interview. The first batch went to India, so did the second batch but the third batch (me) is the first batch to be stuck in Malacca, Malaysia =.=’’’
It is a comprehensive course run over a period of 8 weeks, in a hotel ( that’s right, you heard me!).
Accommodation, 3 buffet meals a day and an allowance of RM 500 is provided for the entire duration. We have classes from Monday to Saturday (9am-530++pm). That is the classes. At end of each module, there will be assignments on that day itself. If you don’t finish, you don’t go home. Hence, the ++. I have just learnt that my hostel has full online wireless coverage (yay!) but the lab which im told to expect to spend 20 hours of my day there daily will be NO INTERNET!!! no laptops allowed. No handphone allowed. No pendrive allowed! Notes are to be used and returned end of the day. I feel like crying. Its like when I was at PDL except PDL was 4 days. This is 8 weeks. Sniff..sniff……
So in place of my 9weeks holiday, I have traded it for prison school. Lol
On a lighter note, there are some eye candy to help the day go by……
Tomorrow is my first day. 7 days of soft skill lectures. God help me.
Ps: I don’t have internet so I have to upload a few at one go. But it is all written on different days
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How do you change a stubborn mule? You cant. Im a stubborn mule and I will never change JUST because you said so! I know I have flaws and I am happy with them. How do you fight that?
Recently, I learned that the answer is : Shame. Guilt. Embarrassment.
I have a short temper. Its short and explosive and easily cool off. I like it because it is the better kind. The pent up anger kept inside until boiling point is ugly, scary, unexpected and usually, long lasting. Not to mention traumatic. So, I easily lose my temper. I expect the best from people and myself included. Most people don’t know but I come down on myself harder than anyone else. My expectation for myself is higher and my expectations are all meant to be met. NO excuses.
You can imagine what a nightmare this is for my poor significant other. Last week I did something stupid. Something that took the no 1 spot on my list of stupidest things a person can do and this particular one takes home the grand prize. It also cost my boyfriend a lot of grief and trouble. The entry below stating that him missing his bus home hence missing his work hence missing that meeting, MY FAULT. It is the STUPIDEST thing I have ever done in my life and I am so SO SORRY MY DARLING!!
He is sick of my apologizing but I cant forgive myself until I have made it up to you. I vow I will find a way, my love.
Anyway, the thing I realized was, over every little thing that he fell short of my expectation, be it important or not, I always came down hard on him. I always expected nothing but the best. Sometimes he does better than expected. Other times, he fell short and my wrath is always ready to be unleashed. Fortunately its never longer than 10 minutes but still, I got mad. I automatically expected him to give me back some of my own bitter medicine. I expected it and I was ready to take it and start making up for it. Not once he lashed back. Not once he said ‘I told ya so’ or ‘wth is wrong with you’ or ‘ how could you be so careless’. Not once did he yell. Not once he got upset. He took it all in as it was and never….. I was so ashamed. Thinking back of all my reactions to his bloopers I was really ashamed.
He always told me to change. To not get so riled up over small things. I never once listened because it has always been who I am and temper is not just something you can correct overnight. It takes a lot of effort which I didn’t feel like putting it. Sometimes tempers help ( I am not going to elaborate) so I don’t wish to fix something that,well, I like. Its rarely gets out of hand but it helps me release the tension and the pressure. He has come to accept it as part of me. After this stupid mistake of mine, I felt so ashamed and so guilty about the way I treated him, I decided to change. I made a promise to him to try to not get angry in a split second. To try to control my anger. To go from disappointed to acceptance without going through the losing temper phase. I made a promise that I am going to change.
So people, that’s how. You don’t tell a stubborn mule that it needs to change. You do it by simply showing it how and by putting it to shame until it decides to change on its own.
People change you in many ways. Ways that you can never phantom. Ways that you never thought was possible. My temper is as big a part of me as my hair or my legs but his generosity and acceptance ability has made me want to be like that. It has made me see that by changing, I become a better person. That’s what life is about really. A path to become a better person.
So wish me luck! With a little luck I will never get mad again. For those who know me well, I am sure you are laughing your head off. =) Have some faith, will ya
